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[TheTruth]

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Ok so ereything is just building up and im hating it. My friends don't see it in me but i do, I'm so good at covering up my feelings/emotions. See i get really really angry with the smallest things and when it comes to the really big things nothing show. I just have a normal face and just act completely normal. I just get ticked off at soo many (sometimes stupid) things. But i never express it. So for the past i dunno, 2 years? I've had all this anger building up inside me and its making me worse. I have no way of letting it out. I mainly get pissed off about those idiots at school, you know the really annoying "i'm all hard and i'm everything" kind of people. See now they really tick me off so i just imagine making them suffer. But it does nothing for me, I've tried hitting things i've tried writing things but nothings working I just want to kill or make these people suffer because i want to live my life without those idiots. Or stupid problems. Or stupid teachers. AHHH i'm not gonna say anymore i just need a way to get this anger out of me because one day i'm either gonna kill someone or just let that anger build up and kill myself. I'm out of options here how do i get this anger out?

[Art_dude]

I know how you feel. When I was in middle school I had the exact same situation. I was actually pretty scared at myself, by how angry I got about (like you said) trivial or small things. I don't know you well, so I can't really say what will help you get your anger out, but from my experience I learned that the solution wasn't getting the anger out, it was destroying the anger from within. It is my personal philosophy that behind every angry impulse, there is sadness. In fact that was the epiphany for me - realizing that I was angry because I was extremely depressed and vulnerable inside. From what you've said it sounds like you've probably been hurting from jerk kids, and annoying teachers. Try exploring the sadness you probably feel about how this happened to you and I'm sure you'll find the root of the anger. Hope this helps. If you need to PM or something I'm here :)

[TheTruth]

That's a good idea, but its not for me. I don't think ever feel sadness, when i do it turns into anger because im sad. I think im made up pure hatrid. I don't feel sympathy for others or feel sad when i read about someones death no matter how old they were, i feel it just makes me weak or something, i spose the truth is, i want to be angry and full of hatrid for those certain people but even though its bad i guess its who i am really. I just don't show it.

[Art_dude]

Everyone feels sadness: you're probably just desensitized to it at this point because of your anger but I assure you you're not pure hatred. Feeling sympathy for others isn't always an instinct: it's a skill, and it's a skill that can be developed and worked on.

"I feel it just makes me weak or something" ---- that's an interesting notion. Why do you suppose you feel weak when you're sad? Did you have a troubled childhood? Often times those who feel weak because of sadness is because in their youth they may have had a parental figure that discouraged emotional exploration.

[Beautiful Obsession]

Okayy, you really need to talk to someone about these feelings.. maybe a teacher or a councler? its really not healthy to be thinking the way you are. thinking of killing people..
i would really recomend you tell someone bbe..

feel free to pm me if ya wanna talk:) x