Out in the open

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Basically I got a letter today telling my about my next appointment. But the letter mentions that the woman I'm seeing is specialised in self harm, so I wasn't going to show my mum, but because of her work she can't take me. So she was trying to force me to give her the letter. She was shouting at me and being horrible and she would keep coming in my room to shout at me. Until the most recent time, which is when she came in and screamed at me until the point I was sobbing and could barely breathe. Then she stopped shouting and asked if I was cutting again. I couldn't speak from crying so much so just nodded.

How do I act now? It's weird. I don't want to go downstairs and be with her.

[MadManWithaBox]

well the longer you wait to talk to her, the more awkward its gonna be. she's gonna think you're ashamed, and didn't trust her enough to confide in her, and its just be weird. go and talk to her, fill her in. let her know why. you'll have to talk about it soon or later, and if its later the trust will be completely gone.

[Amyxoxo]

Let us all know how it has gone :) We are all here for you, it is gonna be ok :)

[Darkness]

You should probably avoid her for a hour or two, and I don't think it will do anymore harm to show her the letter. I also think you should talk to her, she might feel how you feel, probably worse, but I think she might care for some time alone so maybe talk to her tomorrow?

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I'm going to my dad's tomorrow. But she won't let me avoid her. She asked me to come downstairs. I still can't talk to her because I wasn't ready for her to know to start with... Just letting you guys know she does...

[Beautiful Obsession]

i know its goin to be hard babe, but the longer you leave it the worse it will get. maybe just go downstairs and talk. ask her if u can talk about it.. you'll get all worked up about it but it wont be as bad as you think :) x

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

But there isn't anything to talk about...

[ackmedsgirl666]

perhaps you and your mom shpuld talk about whats going on in your. then maybe it will help out the both of you.. maybe you just need a change of scenery or something new to get things of your mind. always works for me
maybe it will for you.. hope this helps

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Yeah. I find a changeo of scenery helps, and I'll be getting it tonight as I'm going to my dad's.