A bit of a rant? I don't fucking know.

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[Amyxoxo]

Honey, i really cant control my emotions at all either. I hurt alot of people when im in a 'bad' mood and i really hate it. But you dont have to keep everything bottled up and/or put on a different face. If you do that then everything will be worse. When you feel like you may hurt someone then just like walk away, if your in school or something then go to the loo's or something, bring like a stress ball with you so that you let all your anger and aggression out on that. I know it sounds stupid but i will work. Also you dont need to punish yourself for your emotions, they arnt your fault and you cant really help them. If your seeing someone councler, theripest then i would tell them, if not then i would strongly advise you do so.
Amyxoxo

[NightFighter]

I used to have a problem with my anger too. It took a lot of strength and self control but it can be overcome. Next time you think you want to say something mean to someone then take a drink or eat something really chewy so your mouth is occupied!
When having a fight with someone stop for 10 seconds and then think - Is this worth it?
If you see someone doing something you dont like either ask them to stop, cover your eyes to block them out or walk out of the room. Oh, and a thing i like to do is really concentrate on the persons appearance. Its like when you look at an object you dont really see it. Things look different when you really examine them. So do this to the person you are arguing with. You might see fear, anger, sadness etc. I dont know why but actually studying them makes me sorry for causing them these negative emotions.
And finally, if that doesnt stop the anger - SCREAM! (into a pillow though :P)
Take Care =]

[MadManWithaBox]

honey, you know it isn't healthy to be like that. trust me. talking to someone at school is the soloution id suggest. being honest with people when it comes to your true emotions is also hard, i know. talking to someone is such a big first step.+ *i mean a professional, i am here to talk anytime

[SincEreLyYeLLiNgBaCk]

honey, i agree with everyone in that keeping in your emotions is making it soooo much worse, because all that its doing is leaving these hurt feelings to ferment and become even stronger when you finally lose control and let them out. I also think that cutting plays a BIG role in this, because cutting makes us (in my opinion/experience) secretive, defensive, and moody. Cutting just sort of adds to depression, because you get that tempory high (yeah i honestly believe its a sort of high), but then you crash even harder. I know not exactly how you feel, but atleast the whole need for perfection thing, because thats my biggest problem too. But in the end all focusing on perfection does is makes us realize how un-perfect we are. It seems that you need an outlet, but your not sure what that is, so can i ask is there anything you love doing? maybe if you start throwing yourself into that it can help ease some of this tension. PM anytime, especially if you feel like your losing it, its better to vent at someone who undertands than someone you love who will take it personally and get hurt. (sorry, long reply, i just talk way way way too much)

[1_21Guns]

This is what I do, all the time, and it drives me crazy. I've lost control over my emotions almost completely, one minute i'll be fine, the next i'll want to rip someones had off thats annoyed me in the slightest way. I've turned around and slapped my friends before because I couldn't control my anger. Don't blame yourself for something that isn't entirely your fault. Sure, noones saying you have to ignore your emotions, and control them the way you do. But you wouldn't have to if the things that caused to you be that way didn't happen. Yeah I'm lame at advice, but I do understand how you feel. A year or so ago, I was two different people while I was around my friends and family I was fine, when I was on my own completely, I was the exact oposite. It only made everything worse because I knew I was lieing to everyone around me because I couldn't stand them knowing the real me. I still act out that little lie, and I bet you've heard it a million and one times, but you really shouldn't bottle it all up inside, like SincEreLyYeLLiNgBaCk said, striving for perfection only highlights our imperfections. Everyone has them. You can talk to me too while i'm there rambling on to you too y'know :)

[Asylum]

hey you are human you have emotions....so what!?! its normal. its better not to supress emotions or you will get a break down... if you hurt some people ask forgivenesss. they won't hate you forever. the are yur frends they will understand it was a bad day and you flipped it. hey it happens to all of us. its not your fault. forget the knife. try ice cubes or drawling on yourself or freeze an oragne a squeeze it instead. write out ur emotions . it helps. it's better and emight save you from scars good luck you cando it. don't think about it. its not worth it..

PM me anytime :)