I don't know

[The Joker]

(This isn't a suicide note in any way. I do not want suicide. I'm not sure what I want though)

I just feel sad. If I read about a sad story, it makes me feel bad. It reminds me of bad things in my life. My family has fallen apart, my parents are going back to court, I'm losing a bunch of friends by going to a new school. I feel upset. I'm about to cry right now, and I don't even know why.

My dad doesn't seem to know how I feel. My best friend, I'm in love with him, but there is a small chance he has the same feelings for me.

Sometimes I just want a hug. A big bear hug from a male friend. I want a friend to show they love me, in any way. Romantic or not.

I just don't. Don't know. And right now things are going pretty good, I don't know why I'm upset.

Even typing this, I'm beginning to cry.

Why do I have to have these feelings when I should be feeling good?

I feel bad majorly when I see others hurting. The fact that others experience pain gives me pain.

It just hurts.

[theOperaGhost]

Well, Matt, you don't sound suicidal, so that is very good. I think your problem is that you are 13 and just feel alone. First of all, like I said, you're 13. Hormones and emotions are just running haywire in you...happens to everyone. Everyone just reacts differently to it.

You are also stressed and upset about your family situation. I really don't think you're too depressed, but you are no doubt not feeling wonderful.

I think it would be best if you just talked about it with someone, either in real life or online. You can PM me anytime or add me on MSN if you want to. I'm open to talk anytime I'm online. You'll get through this, bud.

[nick]

You know Matt, I feel like that lots of the time too. Sorry I wasnt around this morning, talk to you later I hope.

[JackOfClubs]

I'm sorry to hear that. You are just emotional because of your current situation with your family. Talking to someone will help. If you ever need to, please feel free to PM me. I hope you feel better soon.

[Modus Operandi]

Matt, I am sorry.
If you ever need to, be sure to talk it out with someone you trust. That's the best thing you can do.