I Need Help

[ihatemylife]

I Am 18 In A Few Weeks And I Have Been Cutting On and Off For 5 Years No One Knows. I Think I Am Depressed, I Know That I Need Help But I Can't Ask For It Every Time I Feel Ready, Prepared To Talk Something Inside Me Stops Me From Talking. I Feel If The People I Love Find Out They Will Be Dissapointed In Me.
I Am Prety Much The Average Teenager I Have Friends A Job Im Still In School, I Go Out Have A Laugh But When Im Home Alone, Everything Is Different...............

[Raynes]

You have to understand that the people who want to help you have heard everything under the sun. Nothing you tell them is going to be too insane, or too crazy. They can and will help you, but you have to let them. Just let it all out. If someone is disappointed in you for suffering a medical condition which is exactly what depression is, they aren't very good people.

Also, I'm not trying to be a grammar Nazi or anything, but capitalizing every word in every sentence makes it very hard to read what you write, so please don't that.

Blessed be.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Just talk to someone you trust about it, it may take awhile but they will evenutally come around. As Raynes said it is a medical condition.

If you don't feel like you can tell them to there face trying writing it down, text or a phone call?

[dstnyisurs]

You can get help, love.The fact you're willing to admit it is very good. It is often the hardest step. Getting help is one of the second hardest steps. They won't be disappointed in you. You've done nothing wrong. We all fall sometimes, some harder the others and some just can't get back up as easily. I'm one of those people - you'll find them all over this forum. We're all there for you, sweetie.
I agree with Raynes as well. The captitilizing of every word is very hard to read. Even if you do not use capitals at all, it is a lot easier to read then every word being capitolized.

[MadManWithaBox]

I know its hard to ask for helpat first, but once its done you'll feel like a massive weight has been lifted off your shoulders, trust me. The fact you know you need and help, and want to ask for it, is a good step. keep going from there. Talk to a friend, a teacher, a cllassmate, a friends parent, something like that.*And that is indeed quite hard to read capatalised, only just realised what it means.

[SincEreLyYeLLiNgBaCk]

oh gee do i know that feeling, you finally come to the point where you know that its wrong and you want help and your like oh shit, what do i do now? I know its hard, especially when you've crafted the "normal girl" facade, but i think you should pick the friend you trust the most and tell them (as a sort of practice, and somone to vent to if your parents freak out) and then tell your parents. When i told my parents (actually my mom) i just told her that i was really depressed and that i needed help (however i was sort of extremely vague with the cutting, because in my family we don't really talk about our feelings). your parents are probably gonna be shocked so maybe you should come prepared with some sort of pamphlet about cutting to help them understand. sorry for the long ass response and you can PM me anytime :) good luck, i hope you find someone to confide in