is everyone blind?

[YesterdaysNews]

or am I too good at hiding it?

I am NOT happy 80% of the time, but nobody I know notices... my friends just say I'm "grumpy" and my mom just doesn't notice at all... I've cried myself to sleep the past week and a half.
but is it my fault...
I feel like I'm hiding this too well... so I shouldn't blame others for them not knowing...
but on the other hand, I've had some pretty noticble cuts that I've left uncovered and still they didn't notice or bought my lies...
I find it funny how depression can go so unnoticed... although it needs a lot of attention...

I wonder if I commit suicide, will people notice how unhappy I was then? is that what it takes?

[Requin]

No, commiting suicide is not the answer to getting people to notice. Believe me.

Many people, mostly all, don't like the truth, its a natural human flaw, we especially don't like the truth when its difficult to cope with or involves someones depression, being upset etc.

They may have noticed your cuts, but maybe just don't want to adress them as they feel that you would react badly and resent them mentioning it, or they just don't know how to behave to something like that, most average people don't.

Feeling like no one notices or cares is part of the depression really, and in my opinion i think its worse than actually being depressed to begin with, as it just leads you in circles, a vicious circle at that.

Its clear you want people to notice your troubles, have you talked to anyone about them? Apart from on here that is?
Your mum or a doctor? I think you should, it can be the start of the road to being rid of depression.
How would you feel talking to them about it?

[YesterdaysNews]

I've talked to my ex-best friend and she just told me to stop or we wouldnt be friends anymore, and now here we are.
and I've talked to my other best friend, shes more supportive. she wants me to stop but she knows she cant tell me to, she helps the best she can.
and my mom tried to talk to me a few times (when she first found out I cut and when she saw new cuts) but I can't open up properly to her, so she just suggests things that she thinks are whats wrong, but they aren't. and I dont know how to explain things to her...
I think I should see someone about this but my mom only threatened to take me to see a doctor... I wish she'd gone through with it...
and I don't know how I'd tell her that I want to go talk to someone..

[Triceratops]

I think you're lucky to have some friends who do support you. Confiding in people about this matter is not easy, at all. Confessing to your problems and admitting to the fact that you need help is one hell of a step to take alone.

I can really empathize here as I experience this too. A lot of society generally don't recognize or understand a person dealing with depression, it's so common within teenagers and will more than likely be identified as a typical hormonal thing or a personality trait. That's possibly why it tends to go unnoticed, or even shrugged off. I attempt to fix a brave face for the public, although I know it may not work at school as most people assume I'm just exceptionally quiet and gloomy. I'd much prefer them to have those perceptions rather than them know the raw truth about me, I like to ensure that know one has a clue about my real problems.

Feelings of being worthless, ignored, useless and not cared about come along on the side with depression. This may all just be a false burden withering in your mind, with a voice feeding you lies. People may be worried sick about you except you aren't realizing this and that might all be due to the fact that they're too nervous to confront you. It's hard to judge as I don't know you in real life and how you behave and your surroundings.

Never be fooled in to thinking suicide is the solution. It's a mistake you can never erase, and a stupid one at that. I've attempted suicide many times and they haven't succeeded, no matter how close I came towards it. I believe there are reasons for that and why I may be living right now. Most of the times where I felt suicidal was because I wanted rid of the demons in my head that unfortunately come alongside with bulimia and self-harm. Firstly, killing yourself is creating depression and grief for your friends and family and will destroy them completely. No one deserves that.

The best thing to do is try to get help or talk to someone you trust and just let it all out. Maintaining your problems bottled up inside will just create more stress and troubles for yourself. Only allow awareness from the people closest to you, no one else. Otherwise other people could mistake this as possible attention seeking or generally have negative energy, thoughts and attitudes towards you.

[MadManWithaBox]

It may be that your hiding it, or that your parents/friends aren't seeing cos they don't want to see it. if they don't want to believe your not happy, miserable, they'll tell themselves your not and ignore any signs you show that you are. suicuide is the wrong way to get peoples attenion, i promise you from experience. i do emphasise with this though, cos i used to go around with massive scars/fresh cuts, never say a word, and just feel like crap all the time, and no seemed to notice anything, and if they did they wouldn't ask me if i was ok they'd tell me what an idiot i am and how that scar is going to haunt me for the rest of my life. if you want them to notice, tell them. tell them how you feel, what you're going through, they couldn't ignore it then. hope your ok

[mrmcdonaldduck]

maybe you should confide in someone about how unhappy you are.

[Removed]

I 100% agree with all the members here, it would probobly help you if they found out, but keep in mind that after they do they might take some actions which to you may seem a bit crazy but they will say u need help or something, the best reply here would be try to get over cutting, or do not tell them, the second one will give you some problems like hurting your self even more knowing that they do not notice it... If you want to get noticed just tell them... I don't know what more to say, hope i helped and u will make the right decision... Good luck !

[YesterdaysNews]

I really dont know what I want to happen... I want people to notice but I dont... I'm confusing myself. thanks everyone for your opinions... I think I want to start seeing someone about this...