nothing serious

[paranoid]

Okay, the point I want to make before I start is that I understand what I'm dealing with is nothing like what you lot have to put up with. Having said that I still want to talk to someone about this.

I suffer from what I believe is called "exestensial angst" (sorry for the spelling). Anyway, what happens is, every so often, I'll just get struck by the realisation of.....well there's no real way to describe it, the futility of my own existance, the fact that the world would carry on without me, without even realising I'm gone. The fact that to the universe itself I am so insignificant I don't even exist.

When this happens I generally try and think about something else or distract myself with carnal or material desire. Basically I just want to find out if there is some way to deal with it and/or if any of you suffer from this.

ps. I think this may be related to my atheism- I lack the security blanked of religion

pss. also, first post!:)

[antimonic]

Scared youre life is meaningless - give your life meaning.

If youre worried your life is meaningless and you spend most of your time alone doing fuckall, then your bound to feel like this, so go out and make something of yourself!

[paranoid]

thanks atimonic, I guess. However my imediate response to your advice would be nothing I can ever do will ever mean anything.

[TheTruth]

So your questioning your own existence?

Well all i can say is there will always be an impression of you left no matter what you do. Im gonna sound like a complete freak but the smallest action has its consequence and you will either be remembered by loved ones and friends or you will make history and be known by everyone. Also, to be living is to have life and a universe without life is a pointless universe therfore you play a significant part in the universe because you help to make up that mass of life and if you were to no longer exist then you would create an irreplaceable gap in, in the universe because everyone is unique including you meaning that no other person could simply fill the space that you would leave behind. My point being, you play much more of a significant part on Earth and in the Universe whether you choose to believe it, or whether you know of it.

You would be lucky to understand that :). But i hope you see it the way i do and realise that you play a part in the existence of everything. So tryr to bear it in mind the next time you are struck by this "realisation". (personally i would call it a fear than i realisation)