All Round
August 27th, 2009, 11:50 AM
I've been inlove with my best friend for almost three years now. I've been bording on telling her for about a year. But I'm too late now. She and this new boy have gotten into a relationship and being her best friend, she wants me to give him the stamp of approval.
Is it wrong that it breaks my heart to even see a picture of them together? I'm onb a trip till septmeber 1st so I've just seen pictures of this guy on facebook. It makes me so depressed to see them together, I honestly don't know if I can stand by and watch his cuddle and kiss her and hug her the way i've always wanted too but was too chicken shit to make it happen. She doesn't know that I love her, and now it seems selfish to even think of telling her since she loves this guy.
It's ripping me apart what should I do? Who should I be?
Should I be the best friend who smiles and fakely gets along with the guy who stole her spot along side an amazing person?
Or should I be the broken hearted crush who stands by sadley saying "Do what you want" and "yeah he's fine."
I've lost everything now, soon she'll only want to hang out with him... I almost feel like saying "I'm sorry but I can't truthfully approve of the man who's hook up with the person I'm inlove with."
I feel like a bitch. Every time she talks about him, I want to scream that I don't want to hear it. i want to tell her how I love her, praying that with just a sliver of hope that she'll love me back and that it won't destroy our friendship, the only one I truthfully had to lean on. What can I do?
Is it wrong that it breaks my heart to even see a picture of them together? I'm onb a trip till septmeber 1st so I've just seen pictures of this guy on facebook. It makes me so depressed to see them together, I honestly don't know if I can stand by and watch his cuddle and kiss her and hug her the way i've always wanted too but was too chicken shit to make it happen. She doesn't know that I love her, and now it seems selfish to even think of telling her since she loves this guy.
It's ripping me apart what should I do? Who should I be?
Should I be the best friend who smiles and fakely gets along with the guy who stole her spot along side an amazing person?
Or should I be the broken hearted crush who stands by sadley saying "Do what you want" and "yeah he's fine."
I've lost everything now, soon she'll only want to hang out with him... I almost feel like saying "I'm sorry but I can't truthfully approve of the man who's hook up with the person I'm inlove with."
I feel like a bitch. Every time she talks about him, I want to scream that I don't want to hear it. i want to tell her how I love her, praying that with just a sliver of hope that she'll love me back and that it won't destroy our friendship, the only one I truthfully had to lean on. What can I do?