I don't know anymore

[Aves]

Even though I have some nice stuff (an iPod, cell phone, a great education) I am depressed, and that's cause things don't bring me as much joy as actually being around people. But that's the thing, I'm a socially awkward, piece of crap. I don't have many friends, and if I do hang out with them, I always seem to be a third wheel.
I have had suicidal thoughts, and attempted suffocating myself (wussed out last second, basically). I don't want to see a counselor, and I don't want to take crappy medicine.
I'm more posting here as a way to get the words outta me, but I'm seriously starting to hate life, more and more each day.

[YesterdaysNews]

:hug:
if you ever need to talk about this connor, I can listen :)

I know what you mean about the third wheel, been there done that. I know its not fun. maybe when you hang out with your friends next, try hanging out somewhere with lots of other people, like a dance or something. that way you could meet someone new.
you are not a piece of crap
this probably isnt much help, but just know that I'm always around if you need to rant.
:hug:

[Aves]

Thanks Amanda :hug: you did help. but that still doesnt help me being lonely

[Confused123]

If your a spiritual person just remember that you always have your guardian angel and that there's always someone looking over you and doesn't want anything bad to happen.

If not, No-one or nothing is worth taking your life over

[YesterdaysNews]

try joining school clubs/teams and what not. maybe take a group guitar class or something, things like that really help.
(I'm horrible at meeting new people too)

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I think most people are nervous about meeting others, but they put on a mask, they lie about being confident. Try that perhaps? I'm here if you ever need to vent, and I'll try to help as much as I can.

[Confused123]

I was pretty fake in the 6th grade and I started hanging out with people that I could hang out with at school but not home because we were that different.I agree try joining a club that you'd love/like to join and obviously there should be people with similar hobbies