My view.

[GreyxRainbow]

I want to share how I see my self injury.


When I feel like shit and there's no one, just no one at all I can trust. When I feel like crying but I don't because I know there's no one to let me cry, no one who wipes my tears away and lets a smile slide across my face. When I feel like running away but I don't because I know there's no one to come after me and hug me, make me feel safe.

I live in a cage, a cage I built myself. I'm stuck inside there, I can't get out, but I can't get deeper inside too. I can't run to the darkness deep inside that cage, which makes me feel save for some time, but I also can't run to the light outside, which would make me feel save forever.

I am glued to the floor, I can't move.

I want to get to the darkness, even though I know there are monsterous things there to kill me, consume me. I want to go into the darkness more than anything, because it is the easiest way. Because it feels good. The monsterous things will make me happy first, but they will slowly kill me. They will keep entertaining me, they will keep me 'happy', so that I don't see what they're trying to do.

In the light outside my cave, is safeness, happyness. But the way there is hard, it's going to take a lot of fighting, and a lot of strenght. It will take everything I don't have to walk that way safely, everything I need to get first. Strenght, believe, hope, love, willpower.. The price is high, but it's worth it.

But I am still glued to the floor, and I have to get away from there first. Then I have to decide which way to take.

I know which way I should take.

I know which way I shouldn't take.

I don't know which way I will take.

[Project Delta]

Becca, You know if you ever , EVER, need to talk ya can come talk with me k?

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I love the way you worded that. I can relate so much, as I'm sure others can. If you ever need to vent, I'm here. xD I'll try to help as much as I can.

[Becky]

Omw you are like inside my mind

[RaeNose]

It's good that you know which way you should take, because even though the monsters on the outside will try to get at you and blind you, at least they're honest. They fight you from the front. The monsters hidden in the darkness are like the girls in high school. They talk behind your back, plotting against you and bringing you down to their level from the inside out.
I know, because those same exact monsters call out to me asking where I went. That they miss me. That I'm worth something to them, but I know to them, I'm absolutely worthless and they caused me to believe that for so long.

[dstnyisurs]

Took the words right out of my soul.
If you EVER need to talk to me I'm right here. <3