Vaulter
August 24th, 2009, 11:23 PM
This morning i heard the song "Second Chance" By Shinedown, and for some reason it dawned on me, I hate myself. Thats why im so angry, depressed, and obsessive. I get One-itis (Fixating on a single girl) really bad, but not because i like her any more than any really cool girl, but because i believe that girl is better than me, and if i live up to her standards ill be good enough for her, because im not right now. I get angry because i dont like myself, and depressed because i over think my flaws when a girl wont date me, and i think badly of myself most of all. This is a good thing i think, even though its that i dont like who i am. Thats why im always trying to validate myself through others. yay!:yeah: not really that exciting, im not all that happy about it, but i do feel pretty good.