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[TheTruth]

Hi people. I just need well, i dont know what i need, advice perhaps, opinons maybe, help in anyway. I just feel down and angry with myself. For the strangest reasons. Overall i just hate myself for not doing what i know I SHOULD FLIPPIN DO!!! I mean like, school starts soon and i know i should do my homework but somethings stopping me and i dont know what it is and its bugging me. I just have no motivation like, i want to achieve so much but then i think of myself and just think "Ye cuz u can do that". I feel like i'm trying to be more than i am and then i just lose motivation for everything like, i want to lose weight and just be skinny but then i just get mad because everythings so complicated, if you look up diets or how to lose weight on something like google IT DOESN'T GIVE YOU ANY GOD DAMN ANSWERS. It just gives you tips but everyone says something different. I just want it set straight out in front of me like What you need to eat daily and what you need to do daily. SO yeah, i get down because i hate the way i look. Also LIFE IS REALLY PISSING ME OFF! I'm the kind of person who if doesn't like something will scrap it and start all over again. BUT YOU CAN'T DO THAT WITH LIFE CAN YOU. I'm learning piano but even though im on grade 4 im still getting confused on the basics which gets me really annoyed because i shoudn't be but I can't find anything on the net to help me which is just bluddy typical. And i feel at a disadvantage to everyone else in my school because everyone else got a better education than me at their primary school but i went to a right s*it one so im pretty much dumber than everyone else. You know what, I just don't even want to go into anymore. Please feel free to ask a question about something in my life whether it be me or my problems but right now i feel like dying but i would never kill myself because i haven't got the guts too because of the fear im missing out on something in my life which i know i wouldnt. And i would love to cut myself just for the pain as strange as it sounds but im too scared incase i cut an important vein and bleed to death but i dont even know how to cut myself how pathetic is that. I just feel like i deserve less than im getting now. I want to be someone invisible, just a spectator who watches as other people have a go at life and fail like me. I even feel pathetic now just for posting it here. I feel weak for going to others for help. I feel lonely, sad angry, depressed.. al the negative emotions. And i hate myself for what i am.

[simpleasthat]

Hey, mate I see exactly where you are coming from. Start off I've been pllaying the trumpet for 10 years and the piano for 5, I've reached grade 5 on trumpet and 2 on piano. Everyday I get annoyed at how I still make stupid mistakes and never practice. I also understand why you have no motivation, I often look at my textbook during class and think why the f*** am I sitting here learn this bull. But spose the fact that I want to become a doctor is my motivation, the fact that I need to learn in order to achieve my life ambition of helping others. And I think that that is what you need, a life goal, something to strive for in your life to help you chug along.

About your weight issues, if you want I can talk to you in private about how to help that

And about your suicidal thoughts, mate you have no idea how similarly I feel. I've wanted to die for a long time, i ve always thought of myself as worthless but never had the guts to kill myself. I've always felt like i deserve nothing, but I tell you what, you definitely deserve more. There are many people in this world who are harsh, evil and demoralising and have such great lives. Life's tough, everyone needs help through it, so don't feel pathetic for talking about how you feel. And don't hate yourself for what you are. You seem to me like a great guy with a more positive future.

I have one last thing to say, the solution to alot of my problems have been solved by one thing...love. Love solve all your problems and love can be found in the most unlikely places.

I'm sorry if this didn't help at all but I hope it did, you deserve more than you have...

PM or email me whenever you want

[Sceneboy612]

Ok, first i am going to start off by saying that cutting is an option, but it is not the answer to any of your problems. People who cut generally end up with scars that they regret seeing and having. Also, Everyone has a low point once and awhile, even if you are at your low point... things can always get better for you :).
Dont feel weak for asking people for help, because alot of people do it all the time, and when you need help, it is better to ask for it rather than hiding from your fears.

If you need motivation for things, you could try to set goals and try to beat them every term or every month. Because you need to regain some motivation if you want to lose weight/do better in school/etc;.

If you are trying to lose weight, if you go onto any sites, they will tell you to eat healthy and keep active. But if you want to lose more weight, having something simple like a salad a day over a meal, and doing a run can actually help out alot.

And some people do go to bad schools, but a way to improve would to study for tests and do your homework... because those are the two main things here that boost your grade. Even if you did go to a bad school, you can help yourself out by getting a Tudor. My friend got a lot better in school after he went to one.