i dont know whats happening...

[piggy-wiggy]

Okay, so here goes.
well first off, im 15, just recently and i rlly need some help.
im new to this forum, and at the mo, im in a rly bad way.

I guess ive always been a bit bigger than my friends, but im so tall [5''10] that technically im nearly perfect weight . for the past six months or so, ive been self-harming, and nobody knows. for the past two weeks or so, ive basically been starving myself as much as possible, and i even made myself sick last week.

This is rly bad and i know, but i cant stop, im even documenting what i do eat, and my exact weight, but then i get so mad at myself that i run on the tredmill for hours to make it kinda okayy..

and ive made a whole work out plan for winter. and im also going back to my basketball club for the new season. but im getting worried about were this is going, and i rlly just need some help..
thanks to anyone wu iz able to help me out here.
laura...

[Discomposure]

Hi,
First off, are you happy with your wieght, like you said before "i'm nearly perfect weight"
Your going about the wrong way of loosing weight. It sounds to me like you really don't need to. You shouldn't starve yourself, if your looking to lose some wieght then just make sure you have a balanced diet/healthy diet, eat regular meals and maybe cut out lots of snacking on fatty foods. Also have a bit of excersize in your day, maybe just 30 mins of work out? You don't even have to do that everyday. You said you made yourself sick, that's really not good. I understand what you mean when you said I know it's bad but i can't stop, but please eat, it's so important that you eat, not eating can be very serious. You shouldn't be worried about your weight just live a healthy lifestyle:) I really hope you sort things out and sorry that you self-harm. Me too. If you need anything hun, pm me, i'm happy to talk :)

[piggy-wiggy]

tnx..
im okay about my weight, i didnt even realise what was happening until i was sick.
but now i have urges to do it again everyday. and its so hard not to.
i started eating, well, eating portions of jelly, its all i can.
as for ur advice on the excersise, i'l try doing less, i realise now that what ive been doing isnt healthy.
i even chew chewing gum nearly all the time, coz then wen it time for food, the mint taste makes me nt want it. and ino i actually have to stop.

[Discomposure]

Awh you should really try getting back into your eating before it gets too much out of hand...
If you ever need anything, just pm me :) stay strong.

[piggy-wiggy]

ino..im trying.. tnx.....