grr. I think depressions eating at me again >_>

[1_21Guns]

I dont know whats up with me in the past like half hour or so, i'm just suddenly so angry. I keep looking at the wall and wanting to punch it. The suicidal thoughts actually wont leave me alone. I tried listening to music to calm me down which usually works, but instead I looked at the songs differently and twisted them as though they was having a go at me (dont ask how I managed that) so I just gave that up, I figured oh i'll just go sort out my pictures, I couldnt even do that because they're all from when my parents were still together even though none of the pictures are of them. Looking at the just makes me even more mad than before. I cant distract my mind, every time i try to i just end to annoying myself more, i tried tidying my room, but ended up almost throwing things across the room. This moving thing is driving me insane again. My mum was just talking about the house and my eyes started watering. I decide to look at life differently and hope it will make me better, then I realise i'm just lieing to myself yet again. I keep laughing at how pathetic my life is, literally laughing at it, how years of abuse is funny I have no idea but i'm trying any way to deal with it and they wont work. I just want it to stop. I just want me to stop. I'm getting tired of fighting now. I'm slipping again. And I cant say theres that many people to catch me.

[itsandrew_]

Natalie, I can say if you need someone to talk to, I'm here. I know how you are feeling because this has happened to me before and I hope that I can help or you get help.

[Viral Death]

Natalie I told you that you could PM me and IM me!

Maybe you should see a doctor and get on some anti-depressents! I went on some and it helped me out some!

[aLeX..]

sorry to hear about whats been going on, I know what its like trying to do things like listen to music, look at photos.. etc, to making yourself feel better, and then it backfiring and making you feel worse. have you got a close friend that you can ring up? cos if they're quite trustworthy, maybe you could talk to them about it?

and the suicidal thoughts..
i made this up the last time a felt suicidal and it seemed to help for a while, write down a list of things in your life that make you smile or laugh. i was quite suprised at the amount of things i could think of. i still felt crappy, but at least the suicidal thoughts were not as strong as they were.
or make yourself a cup of tea (if you like tea...) and watch one of your favorite comedy films/tv show. "friends" seems to work for me.

but in the long run, talking to someone helps a lot. if you ever want to talk, feel free to message me whenever.

hope i helped.
take care. x

[BuryYourFlame]

natalie, i am around if you ever wanna talk...keep that in mind...kay? :)

[1_21Guns]

Natalie, I can say if you need someone to talk to, I'm here. I know how you are feeling because this has happened to me before and I hope that I can help or you get help.

Thanks, although this isn't the first time its happened to me either...

[1_21Guns]

Natalie I told you that you could PM me and IM me!

Maybe you should see a doctor and get on some anti-depressents! I went on some and it helped me out some!

Thanks, I know.. and meh. i've said this to people before. I cant physically tell my mother in any way shape or form. I know they are ment to help...

natalie, i am around if you ever wanna talk...keep that in mind...kay? :)

Yeah thanks..

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~Jetfire

[arcticmunkii]

Im here if you need some one to talk to...People like you don't deserve this -_-