urges..

[aLeX..]

I haven't self-harmed for 6 weeks. the longest i've gone so far. for the past week i've felt natrually happy, the first time in years.. since i was 12. on the back of my mind, a part of me misses the feeling of self-harming, and i don't really know why, since i remember how upset it made me. i've got scars on my arm and one on my hand, that when i look at them, it makes me feel like i need to do it again, to punish myself for the scars (i'm not sure if that makes any sense or not..) i try so hard to push those feelings away, that i sometimes get emotionally exhausted.
so i'm worried that i might eventually cave in. i really don't want that to happen. i know something upsetting or stressing will probably come along at some point, cos no one can be happy or have happy things going in their life all the time :/ and that might give me urges.

how could i keep on not self-harming when something comes along that might give me urges?

[Harley Quinn]

Some self harmers having the feeling of guilt when they see scars and cos of that they end up cutting. Its a long time to not self harm and if something comes along that get you down remember the happy feeling you had when you didnt cut
:hug3:

[aLeX..]

..thanks siobhan, i'll do that if something bad comes along. here's hoping it goes well :)