Counselling

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

First appointment was pretty uneventful. I gave her a note I had written before hand, explaining about my cutting and how I think I may be depressed. She asked me the usual questions, about friends, family, etc. Where I cut, thoughts of suicide. Blah blah blah lmao. I got a booklet about self-harm, I'll read it later, need to keep it from my mum. She made me take a text to see if I was depressed or anything, but never said any more about it, guess I'll find out later. She's refering me to another woman, one who specialises in self harm...

[Grey fox]

Hopefully the next one will be a little more human?

It's really good that you are getting counselling now, there's only so much friends can do, sadly...

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

She's nice enough, just seems a little clueless when it comes to self harm.

[Harley Quinn]

I guess grtting referred to the self harm specialist will help you. Hope it goes well for you

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Reading this really helped me cause I've got my first appointment with a psychologist tomorrow and I didn't know what to except, but I suppose it will be something like what you were asked today. So thanks for sharing.

[Grey fox]

I was clueless until very recently! Hopefully it will be easy for you to relax with he new one and enable yourself to open up, after all, they are specially trained to not hurt people who open up to them!

how are you doing in general otherwise then?

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I'm feeling okay, although I want to cut even more. I was so nervous and freaked out by the idea, and I'm no more enlightened.

Reading this really helped me cause I've got my first appointment with a psychologist tomorrow and I didn't know what to except, but I suppose it will be something like what you were asked today. So thanks for sharing.

The questions won't be that bad, I can handle all the question, just not them having all their concentration on me. Good luck, and it'll all be fine, just try not to panic. xD

[Grey fox]

Don't worry, they are there to help!

As are all the people on here!

*hug*

[Project Delta]

Morgan. just OPEN up to the people. I'm not meaning to sound harsh but that is what you need to do. Therefore they can help you in the best way.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I've told them everything. Well everything I understand. All my feelings are bottled up that I can't seperate them.

[Frankenstein's Bride]

I've told them everything. Well everything I understand. All my feelings are bottled up that I can't seperate them.

Not to sound harsh but let that be a lesson to you. Learn from your mistakes. next time someone or thing upsets you, tell someone or write it down. that way you can remember and properly deal with each thing at a time so it doesn't come to anything all that bad. nipping it in the bud as it were. hope that helped.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I know. But I went through a really rough year where a lot of bad shit happened to close together that I couldn't deal with it.

[overcome.]

I know positive thinking can only do so much, and it certainly doesn't make problems go away, it's more of a temporary 'relief' if you will. But being referred to this other councellor will be much better for you, think of it positively that way. This person will know where to help you, councellors have all sorts of experiences, with many of them it's what inspires them to choose that career. They want to help people who are currently going through what they've been through, or similar. So keep your head up and try to remain positive before you see her. I know it feels like there isn't always light at the end of the tunnel, but you never know. Sometimes this hope and desire can keep you going. I hope everything goes really well for you.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Thank you.

[Project Delta]

Btw morgan, GIVE IT TIME. Okay?

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I am, but I'm beginning to not see the point. I like cutting far too much >.<

[Project Delta]

Do you want to quit? truthfully?

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I don't know >.<

[Project Delta]

You must know. Do you want to be cut free? Or do you not?

[overcome.]

When you say you like cutting too much, what is it you like about it?

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I don't know Aaron. I'm scared.

And I like the sense of relief I get, I like everything about it other than the fact it upsets those that care about me. I know its bad but I don't know if I want to stop. I'm cared to.

[overcome.]

Everybody has their own ways of relaxing, their own ways of letting things out. I know this is a very hard time you're going through, I won't pretend to feel your pain or patronise you, but do you have any other ways of letting out your emotions? Do you find it hard to talk about emotions (in person), or is there anybody you can speak to?

If you'd ever like to share an ongoing problem, particular problem/dilemma or have somebody to confide in, don't be afraid to PM whenever :) However bad you may feel, you're not alone, and people express themselves and give themselves self comfort in a variety of ways. Speaking about things whether it be in person or online can give you a little bit more of a better feeling, or you may meet somebody or come across someone who has the same problems going on too. There's not really any right or wrong, it's just personal preference. Some ways aren't considered the best and healthy ways perhaps, but there's always going to be some happiness round the corner, even on your darkest days. Take care of yourself. You will be okay.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Thanks. And I try to talk to friends irl, but none of them seem to care enough to listen. And I don't like to bother people online, and when I have it never seems to help me. :(

[Project Delta]

Morgan... i'm ALWAYS here and i dont care if you bother me, because really you dont. I'm more than glad to help you out as much as i possibly can. It makes me feel better when i help other people. So next time come chat with me. K?

[overcome.]

Morgan... i'm ALWAYS here and i dont care if you bother me, because really you dont. I'm more than glad to help you out as much as i possibly can. It makes me feel better when i help other people. So next time come chat with me. K?

I agree with this, yeah I'm newer to the forums, but I joined because I wanted to share experiences and help people any way I would. Whether this be just being there to listen, or being there to offer advice or somebody to speak to, I'm here. I would like it if you'd like to confide in me, I have some problems as well, I'm dealing with generalised anxiety and a phobia problem that's stopping me doing a lot right now. Therefore I'm at home loads, and I like chilling out on the laptop, browsing these forums. I'd love to hear from you and offer support if I could :)

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I'll try. I just feel so pathetic asking for help. And I'm scared to stop...

[Project Delta]

Dont be. Asking for help is a sign of strength. being able to admit something is wrong takes a lot of courage and strength.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Its not that. I'm scared of stopping... And that adds to me feeling pathetic

[Project Delta]

I know it is a scary thing. But trust me it is worth it. You want to talk about fear? I'm doing the self harm presentation soon. And groups are one of my phobias. Now THAT is gonna be scarey... Just so you know, your not the only one who has to go through scarey things.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I know I'm not. I just can't handle them very well.

[overcome.]

Dont be. Asking for help is a sign of strength. being able to admit something is wrong takes a lot of courage and strength.

Agreed, asking for strength is your first step forward. Think of that way, it's a positive movement to solving your problems. Things are better out then in, I'd like to have a chat with you if you wanted, please don't feel alone. Nobody in this world is alone :)

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I always feel alone, even though I know I'm not. I always feel unloved and forgotten about... I don't see the point anymore...

[chelsay13]

ahh, mine was too.

except, I took a prior to the appointment. 2 of my teachers and my parents had to take the test too... it was a bit awkward... especially when i had to explain to my teachers why I needed them to take the tests.