kalkidude
August 19th, 2009, 12:20 AM
I will elaborate reasons if anyone wants to know,
but for now... my life is perfect in many ways. honestly.
but starting about a week ago, this terrible sadness about what you could call "the dark side" of my existence (everyone has stuff that they wish they hadn't) has been sort of corroding the way i see at the world.
it's making me aggressive, obnoxious, waaay too emotional.. and today for example... i was at band practice and i felt so angry and agitated, that i consciously had to control my behavior. i think i have major control issues, and the thing is that for example in the band, i've been saying cool stuff like for example that the leadership in the band is oscillating with what each wants to add, sort of everyone should lead completely... but now i'm like wait... i'm full of crap... i want to be in control of everything.
i know i am being very immature. but i certainly want to be back to being the friendly awesome person know i can be. i feel very angry. and i'm too skinny to be angry at anyone.
well sry for the high levels of emo.
but for now... my life is perfect in many ways. honestly.
but starting about a week ago, this terrible sadness about what you could call "the dark side" of my existence (everyone has stuff that they wish they hadn't) has been sort of corroding the way i see at the world.
it's making me aggressive, obnoxious, waaay too emotional.. and today for example... i was at band practice and i felt so angry and agitated, that i consciously had to control my behavior. i think i have major control issues, and the thing is that for example in the band, i've been saying cool stuff like for example that the leadership in the band is oscillating with what each wants to add, sort of everyone should lead completely... but now i'm like wait... i'm full of crap... i want to be in control of everything.
i know i am being very immature. but i certainly want to be back to being the friendly awesome person know i can be. i feel very angry. and i'm too skinny to be angry at anyone.
well sry for the high levels of emo.