i give up

[Gumleaf]

i really believed in myself i have been getting better. i really thought the meds were working. all parts of my mind seemed like it was generally sane and better, therapy had been going better again and now there is the last week. its like i'm back to square one, been pushed from the long hard climb of stairs i had been climbing and now back on my ass at the bottom. why is everything like this? why can't i get better? in the 3 hours i have been home from school i have been crying for over an hour and feeling generally crap as i've come to realise how pathetic i actually am and how i'm about the most useless thing on earth. i don't have the fight in me anymore, i can't beat this at all. i don't know what to do, i keep getting help and it doesn't help. i hate annoying people, being a burden on people. its no suprise that i keep losing friends, i just scare people and annoy them off and i hate myself for it. i have absolutely no purpose in life and a walking disaster and i don't know how to deal with it anymore? i just wish i could curl up in a corner and disappear!
:cry:

[Random_oso06]

its ok man everyone has those times when they feel like that hell even i felt like that when i was younger i even tried to commit suicide because i felt that way but i didn't that wasn't the answer and for you wishing to disappearing is a noo noo ether and look you help so many people here and fight have the courage to tell yourself keep going no matter what happened because there is always someone there cheering you on wanting to to get back on you feet and try again so don't feel so bad :D