god, it was 3 years ago and I'm still torn up about it.

[teenanx94]

ok well two years ago I lost 6 friends all in different accidents.
Benny: a car accident. everyone always told him to wear his sear belt.
Devin: another car accidnet. fucking drunk drivers. I hate them all.
Andy and Nicole: on there way home from a party and we don't know what happened. no alchohal or drugs were found in there systems. only one totaled car and Justin crying in the back holding Andy and nicoles hand. he is still alive but has moved.
Austins brother: he was having a hard time healing from a accidnet and my friend Austin found his brother shot cuts on his arms in the bathroom.
Sam: his 6 year old sister called 911 screaming "mommys trying to kill me". her mom had shot her son in the head and framed it to look like a suicide, then she went to go read a book and when her daughter found Sam she tried to kill her to. Lilly is living with her dad in Florida.

I'm sorry. all this happened within two weeks. it hit our small town hard. it was two years ago and I still break down and cry and get extermly depressed when I think about this. this two week anniversary is next month. I just can't stand it. I miss them so much. honest to god all of this is real. how can I
move on?

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Have you tried talking to a professional to help you through the grieving? It must be hard for you and its understandable and only normal that it still affects you, especially as it all happened in such a short time.

[teenanx94]

the school system hired 20 social workers to help all the students with the greiving. I'm usually ok just when I think about them or when the two week anniversary comes around I fall apart.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

That's understandable. Maybe you could try talking to someone during that point?

[wildeyed]

I'm sure you've heard this a lot, but I'm sorry.
I lost my best friend 4 years ago, so I can only imagine
what your going through right now.
And trust me, it's completely natural to feel sad and depressed when you
think about your friends.
Losing anyone is hard, let alone 6 people in two weeks.
When you think about them, instead of crying - try smiling..
for all the good times you've had and for being able to have them in your life.
Honestly, it doesn't really get too much easier. Not yet anyway.. it will though.
Just give it time and don't try to force it.. When the anniversaries come around, make it a time to celebrate them (have a lunch at their favourite spots, light a candle, have a bonfire ..)
Each day and each breath is a gift, so live it the best you can for them.
that's all we can ever do.

i hope this helped.