:'(

[YesterdaysNews]

Im not sure where to post this (feel free to move if neccisary) but here we go...
I just broke down into quiet sobs & silent tears. I thought of how many people I am hurting by self harming. I want help, I need help. but right now all I need is a hug, someone to hold me and tell me everything will be okay. I hold every emotion, everything that hurts me all bottled up inside and slowly its eating away at me. no one around me understands enough to help. I was on the TWLOHA website reading and what not and I realized, I'm just another statistic... and not a good one. what if one day i just cut a little too much? what more would I be than just a number? just one more tally on the suicide chart... just a few more tears that the people I loved would shed over my dead body...

Ive never been this low...
again I dont really know where I was going with this... it doesnt really make sense, just my jumbled thoughts. sorry for wasting space

[NightFighter]

Heya, Even though this is over the internet and probably not too comforting but :hug:
:) I think this is a very positive step actually!! As you have now realised this then it should be motivation for you to stop self harm and will also prevent you from commiting suicide! Now, about all your jumbled thoughts. You chould write down everything thats in you head onto paper. Its such a simple idea but it really does help to sort everything thats spinning around your head out. Its not healthy to keep thoughts in your head so it should help a lot. Self harm gets worse and worse as time goes by so the cuts will get deeper and they will become life threatening cuts. Try to stop now! You're right, people would be devastated if you killed yourself. Imagine someone you loved commiting suicide. You would be haunted forever how you should have known how low they were feeling and could have saved them. Suicide just causes too much hurt for the friends and family who have been left behind.
Its nice to hear of when someone realises something like this so i dont think this thread is a waste of space! :)

[YesterdaysNews]

I dont know what to do... my boyfriend keeps saying he's close to death... that soon he wont bother me & i can be happy... :( i wont be happy if he kills himself, he doesnt seem to understand that anymore... I cant live without him. if he dies.... I will follow him.. i cant see myself alive without him in my life. he is my life... :( I cant keep feeling like this

[teenanx94]

mabey this boyfriend of yours isn't helping you at all. because of the way he talks about how close to death he is it's affecting you. mabey you should just leave him behind and start over with your life. hope this helps. :-)

[fallen angel]

hey hun, I'm affraid I'm going to have to agree with teenanx on this one.
Is there anyway of telling your boyfriend how scared you are of losing him?

take care, am here to talk if you want xxx

[YesterdaysNews]

I do tell him, he just says that my friends will help me... its better with him today but I dont know how long it will last

[muppletart]

Get rid of him, he's only going to bring you down in the end.

You're 14, it doesn't matter at this stage, you'll easily get over it.

[Harley Quinn]

Amanda right this boy that you have talked about he seems to just bring you down,(i might be wrong) you know you can always pm me if you ever need to. I think both of you need a little space apart so you can assess all your thought and go from there :hug:

[Grey fox]

He sounds like a pretty selfish git to me. Seriously! As your boyfriend he should be helping you out, and hoping for help in return, rather then dragging you down with him.

Though to be fair, it sounds like he needs you as much as you need him.

Maybe an activity which would be worth trying to be for each of you to make a list of things that first attracted you to each other, what makes you special and why you like the other person. (I'm sure there will be many many things, especially if each of you really dig deep) This should then help him to realise how important he is to you.

Ooh, I just had a brainwave about bottling up negative emotions and things. Like NightFlighter said, try writing down your thoughts and feelings, and then (here's my flash of inspiration...) doing something like ripping it up or burning the paper to symbolise you getting them out and conquering them. (This is also great fun!)

I'm gladd it was better today, and i'm afraid to say that you can't expect sudden overnight huge improvements, but be glad every time there is any small improvement. If there are any steps backwards, then well, we're all here to help and listen!

Hope this helps :) *huggle*