anime Freak
August 13th, 2009, 10:53 AM
i notice a lot of people ranting about thier dads and this seemd like a good place for me to do it:
he is a quiet, angry person. if he has a bad day at work the tinniest little thing out of place at home will set him off like a nuclear bomb, and he wont stop yelling at me until its time for my mom to come home, and then he says the same thing every time "dont say anything to your mom". the only time we have ever had a deep meningful conversation with him is on the rare occasion where he has a couple beers with his freinds and then comes home. and i cant say anything to him that contradicts him in the least. even when i am right and he is wrong he still yells at me, perfect example: i ask if i can go on the computer he will yell at me "you have been on the computer all day why dont you go do something outside, all you have done is sit inside all day" and because he is wrong on that i will yell back at him "no i wasnt i rode my bike over to my freinds house and helped him outside," then he will get in my face and scream "dont you ever F*ck*ng talk to me like that again, i am the adult you are only fourteen you dont have any right to talk to me like that, you are luky there are laws against it because if there werent i would hit you on the side of your head so hard so would pick yourself up on the other side of the room." and i do love him, like when he gives me the rare complement or when he does something with me once and a while like he is taking me and my freinds on a day trip tommarow and letting them spend the night over. but the ratio i feel for him is:
50% nothing he is just a person i have to live with
10% love for him
20% absolute hate for him
and 20% down to the very core of my person absolute fear of him.
all i want is the closeness that a lot of kids have with thier dads, all i want is to be able to talk to him without having to worry about him yelling at me, heck all i want is to be able to talk to him without him giving me a look like all i am doing is interupting him reading the paper or his book or distracting him from the news, i feel like the only way to avoid an argument with him is to come home as late a possible and avoid him as much as i can
he is a quiet, angry person. if he has a bad day at work the tinniest little thing out of place at home will set him off like a nuclear bomb, and he wont stop yelling at me until its time for my mom to come home, and then he says the same thing every time "dont say anything to your mom". the only time we have ever had a deep meningful conversation with him is on the rare occasion where he has a couple beers with his freinds and then comes home. and i cant say anything to him that contradicts him in the least. even when i am right and he is wrong he still yells at me, perfect example: i ask if i can go on the computer he will yell at me "you have been on the computer all day why dont you go do something outside, all you have done is sit inside all day" and because he is wrong on that i will yell back at him "no i wasnt i rode my bike over to my freinds house and helped him outside," then he will get in my face and scream "dont you ever F*ck*ng talk to me like that again, i am the adult you are only fourteen you dont have any right to talk to me like that, you are luky there are laws against it because if there werent i would hit you on the side of your head so hard so would pick yourself up on the other side of the room." and i do love him, like when he gives me the rare complement or when he does something with me once and a while like he is taking me and my freinds on a day trip tommarow and letting them spend the night over. but the ratio i feel for him is:
50% nothing he is just a person i have to live with
10% love for him
20% absolute hate for him
and 20% down to the very core of my person absolute fear of him.
all i want is the closeness that a lot of kids have with thier dads, all i want is to be able to talk to him without having to worry about him yelling at me, heck all i want is to be able to talk to him without him giving me a look like all i am doing is interupting him reading the paper or his book or distracting him from the news, i feel like the only way to avoid an argument with him is to come home as late a possible and avoid him as much as i can