my first appointment...

[Discomposure]

okay so i had my first appointment at this mental hospital to see a mental health worker, it wasn't all that bad ... in my mind i had it made to to be some sort of nightmare place to go to and that i was going to be looked upon as a bit of a wierdo. But it really wasn't they were nice people and all they did was assesed me and looked at my SH they asked me questions took notes and they want to see me in two weeks to have our first "session" and then they are gettin me anti-depressants, hopefully these will lift my mood. They didn't really do anything about my SH, i really want to stop but for some reason when i'm trying i just think, whats the point? im only gonna get scars ( some are deep ). i really don;t wanna think like that "oh, it's only cutting" but thats the way i feel i don;t see it as a problem or anything bad, i really don't understand and it's so furstrating.

[dstnyisurs]

self destruction is easy to fall into, and our emotions tend to make us think that any addictive activity that feels good is okay when it really isnt. it isnt okay because of the emotions behind the self harm, not nessarily the self harm itself. the inability to cope is putting a permanent mark upon yourself and causing yourself to hurt yourself in the most aweful way imagined. people are not designed to hurt themselves, and when they do something is wrong. getting on anti depressants and lifting yourself out of the fog can help you see how wrong it is and hopefully send you on the yellow brick road out of this hell we call depression. i hope it will. im here for you if you need me.

[Discomposure]

thanks for the reply, and i do know what your saying, deep down i probably know its the wrong thing and yeah it is bad... so why do i keep having these thoughs about it's not bad, it helps me doesn't it so how can it be bad.. and yeah i think im supposed to be getting anti-depressants, dunno when though...

[EimmaTheDinosaur]

Uck. Okay, I mean, Most physicists (I think I spelled that right? I dunno) Are there to just "evaluate" you and pretty much see how phys-co you are on a scale from 1-10. Some might actually care, most are just doing their job.

[Asylum]

psycologists are there to help. however if they aren't empathetic, or haven't gone through it themselves all they have is notes... they don't know and can't comprehend the feeligns behidn ti... for example i see pictres and hear stories about how it's like to live on the moon, however i can't comprhend what its like to be on the moon without being on the moon. there is a point hun aobut stopping... its to be free of that SH. imagine a life without wanting to hurt yourslef anymroe.. you can do this, you can win the battle of SH. first step is wanting to stop. and you have help, which will help you want to stop. you are on your way to a SH free life. i know how frustrating it can be not thinking its wrong.. but it doens't help us in the end... only creates mor unnecesary problems... and gets other people hurt who are involved in our lives.. you can PM me anytie you need someone to talk to

[BuryYourFlame]

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