1_21Guns
August 10th, 2009, 04:36 PM
I rang my mum to ask if the cat could have biscuits, and before she puts the phone down, she goes "oh yeah, and we're getting the keys to the house tonight at 7.
this house, I dont have a problem with, where it is, I do. To cut a long story short. Moving there could make my depression even worse, and make me very ill, as my dad will drive past there every day.
When she put the phone down, I went into my room, had a sudden anger rush, then started walking towards the kitchen, I just about get out of my room, and suddenly I colapse into the wall and start crying my eyes out. Next thing I know i'm in the kitchen about to pick up a kitchen knife. Its like I lost control. Luckily I never actually picked up the knife. Instead I calmly walked back out of the kitchen, told myself no, then sat back down in my room.
I dont know what happened, all that was rushing through my mind was cutting again. I didn't want to either, it was like something just came over me. =/ dunno why I posted this. I was just scared I guess.
this house, I dont have a problem with, where it is, I do. To cut a long story short. Moving there could make my depression even worse, and make me very ill, as my dad will drive past there every day.
When she put the phone down, I went into my room, had a sudden anger rush, then started walking towards the kitchen, I just about get out of my room, and suddenly I colapse into the wall and start crying my eyes out. Next thing I know i'm in the kitchen about to pick up a kitchen knife. Its like I lost control. Luckily I never actually picked up the knife. Instead I calmly walked back out of the kitchen, told myself no, then sat back down in my room.
I dont know what happened, all that was rushing through my mind was cutting again. I didn't want to either, it was like something just came over me. =/ dunno why I posted this. I was just scared I guess.