Freedom!

[Syvelocin]

My GOD I hate the psych hospital. I think my parents shifted through my crap while I was there... my room looks different. Or maybe that's just me still being paranoid from the looking at you constantly and opening your door every 15 minutes at night to check if you're still alive.

I feel much better, but I still have that urge to cut myself... but there's no way in hell my parents will let me near razor blades to even shave anyway... so I need to go find a rubber band...

Well, I'm also feeling really hyper since they just put me on wellbutrin three days ago... blah -_- But they also put me on seroquel! ^^ Every day I anxiously awaited 9pm when they'd give it to me, and then thirty minutes later I was just out of it. Me likey :D

[Rawr]

haha that stuff can make u bounce off the walls i know but im glad ur out im not in much of a good place to tell u how to get the urge to go away but what my friend would alwies do is everytime she wanted to cut she would test her selfe by saying like ok lets not cut for 5 min then she would try 10 then 15 so on and so forth and it seemed to help her alot u could alwies try that

[Atonement]

Psych wards suck. I know. But, I hope you got something out of it. Also, rubber bands are good as long as you keep it safe.

Seroquel can be a good mood stablizing, but I suggest an SSRI and an emergency anti-anxiety. That's what I did at least. I was originally on seroquel for its calming effect and on zoloft as an anti depressent. The thing is, most SSRIs have a calming effect in them that will hold you over, then if you have a high anxiety time, you can take an emergency anyti-anxiety (I have Xanex) and then you treat both. Seroquel can do crazy things with your sleep schedule too. So, try what you doctor wants, but be aware of side effects so you can get the right dosages and pills.