I was so close

[YesterdaysNews]

the scars on my wrist had almost faded to just little lines, but he sent me over the edge. i'm a failure. with my luck my mom will check me when she gets home. i went over a week without cutting my arm, but now im back a zero... i honestly want to die right now. I havent felt this suicidal before. Im sick of pretending Im okay. i told my mom i was to make her happy.i wonder what she thinks about her daughter self harming? im a burden, in the way.

i dont really know what i am looking for with this post... sorry for wasting space.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

You're not wasting space, it helps to vent. Ans we all relapse I understand how you feel, but I doubt anybody thinks of you as a burden. You're mother will only worry about you, not think of you as a burden or in the way. You're not a failure. Not anywhere near it. Trust me, I know failures. Most of my "friends" you are not a failure. Feel free to PM me if you ever need to talk.

[YesterdaysNews]

thanks. my mom saw them (im pyschic) and now shes trying to make me go talk to a counsellor. i dont know what to make of it. im scared... im not good with talking to people about my problems face to face, especially people i dont know.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

This I sorta have experience on. Although I decided to go to a counsellor. I know its scary but talking to someone you don't know is a lot easier than it seems, and if you can't talk to them face to face, trying writing it down. Its their to help and they're trained to so they won't judge. But going to a counsellor is the best thing for you.