AutumnDae
August 6th, 2009, 09:24 PM
I tried to forget the date when I woke up today. I tried to keep a smile on my face at work. I tried really hard not to cry when I got home. I tried even harder not to cry while showering. However, trying wasn't enough. The date was still the same, no matter how bad I wanted it to change. The smile kept fading from my face during work. The tears came when I got home. The tears came while I was in the shower.
Where to start, bud? The gang is doing okay for right now. Logan's doing alright for himself. Jami I think is still heartbroken a bit but she gets by. And Mikey. Well, we all knew how he would turn out. And me? Well, what about me. I've got my hard days when I wish you were here. I'll tell you a secret. I still have your number stored in my phone. When I got a new one I almost deleted it but I put it in there. Sometimes I think maybe if I call you will pick up.
People say it gets easier as the days pass, and they're right. Sometimes, anyways. Others it seems like it only gets harder. Another day without your warming smile and laugh. Another day without seeing those dimples. It gets hard, I'm not going to lie. But somehow, everyone manages. I know that's what you want. At lunch some days I swear you're standing up in line to get some food. But then it's just someone else. Another face in the crowd. Whenever my toenails are painted pink I think of you bud. <3 And whenever I notice a Crunch bar in the grocery store, I think of you too. I ate one of those today. Even though I don't like chocolate. It was hard to swallow, what with it being gross and all, but I managed.
I think your parents are doing pretty good. I saw your mom in the store the other day....She looked okay. I can see a big hole in her heart though, missing right out of the center. Your brother is doing okay as well as far as I know. I heard he's got a girlfriend, some hot girl from college. That doesn't surprise you though, does it?
How are you doing bud? I hope you're doing well. There's so much I want to tell you. So much that you need to see. I know you're watching over us. I know it.
-Autumn <3
Where to start, bud? The gang is doing okay for right now. Logan's doing alright for himself. Jami I think is still heartbroken a bit but she gets by. And Mikey. Well, we all knew how he would turn out. And me? Well, what about me. I've got my hard days when I wish you were here. I'll tell you a secret. I still have your number stored in my phone. When I got a new one I almost deleted it but I put it in there. Sometimes I think maybe if I call you will pick up.
People say it gets easier as the days pass, and they're right. Sometimes, anyways. Others it seems like it only gets harder. Another day without your warming smile and laugh. Another day without seeing those dimples. It gets hard, I'm not going to lie. But somehow, everyone manages. I know that's what you want. At lunch some days I swear you're standing up in line to get some food. But then it's just someone else. Another face in the crowd. Whenever my toenails are painted pink I think of you bud. <3 And whenever I notice a Crunch bar in the grocery store, I think of you too. I ate one of those today. Even though I don't like chocolate. It was hard to swallow, what with it being gross and all, but I managed.
I think your parents are doing pretty good. I saw your mom in the store the other day....She looked okay. I can see a big hole in her heart though, missing right out of the center. Your brother is doing okay as well as far as I know. I heard he's got a girlfriend, some hot girl from college. That doesn't surprise you though, does it?
How are you doing bud? I hope you're doing well. There's so much I want to tell you. So much that you need to see. I know you're watching over us. I know it.
-Autumn <3