Just want to die

[Ezika]

I dont understand why i feel this bad, ive never been beaten or abused or used drugs/alcohol and yet i feel so down all the time. I started feeling down when i was about 11 and i started cutting 2 years ago and im trying to quit but i just dont see the point to life anymore. One minute i can be hyper as hell and the next i just feel so depressed i cant move and i want to kill myself. And i feel so bad because often i really really want to actually cause someone pain, real pain, and i hate myself because i know that fantisising about hurting someone really isnt normal. i feel like such a freak, i can stop these horrible thoughts of hurting people and i cant stop hurting myself i just want to end it all.

[mrmcdonaldduck]

dont feel like that ezika, everything is going to be ok.

[Liam21]

Dear Ezika:
Yes thinking about hurting someone is bad but thinking about hurting yourself is worse. Even worse than that would be acting on those thoughts. You don't have to feel like that, you've got a family that loves you and friends that care about you. You don't have anything you should want to die because of, if that doesn't convince you then think about your future and how your family and friends would feel if you were to die. Don't do that to them, don't do that to yourself. You should talk to your parents or an adult you respect and trust about seeing a therapist, they aren't perfect for everyone but they helped me gain control of my life.

[beedubs]

its not worth it.. try talking to a school psycologist or someone that can help