Unresolved Anger?

[Callwaiting]

Basically I think I'm harbouring major unresolved anger issues towards life itself as a result of being an outsider, a weirdo or whatever adjective you'd grace me with the label of.

I'm sick of being seen as the easy target
I'm sick of being looked down on by everyone
I'm sick of being laughed at
I'm sick of nobody defending me
I'm sick of being afraid every time I go in public that I'll be made fun of
I'm sick of being bullied constantly
I'm sick of even my teachers picking on me

I'm sick of life.

Fuck, ending it seems so easy now.
It'd solve so many problems.

I'd never have to be sad again, the people who caused it might realise their mistakes, the world would be saved from another failure in the making, I'd be spared of a boring life etc.
These thoughts keep gaining credence as they bounce around my head, every day gives all of these points a new truth.
Giving up insignificantly and quickly would be the perfect compliment to my insignificant, short life.

I dunno, I probably won't do it, but I'll be damned if it doesn't become more enticing with every day that passes.

[Requin]

Even if this is a rant. I need to say something here.
I understand how you feel, I felt the same way when I was younger and being picked on. Honestly, I know you want to show them all your angry and aren't a pushover etc.
And I don't blame you, I felt the same way. Now I don't know about you, but I'm not a fighter, I can do it good enough, but its not in me, I'm not a natural fighter. So doing that in front of them would only encourage them further, so I didn't do it.

As I said I do'nt know what your like, you may be able to pull it off, do all the rebel hard nut stuff in front of them and gain some respec'.
I know you want to do it, but tbh I can't see how it would help you in any way. You'll end up having people who are perfectly nice and decent thinking your a twat becuase you are angry to everyone etc.

And suicide isn't the way out either. How old are you? You have so much life yet. And you only get one shot at it, its worth living out to the full don't you think? Yes there are bastards in the world, but there are a lot of nice, good honest ones as well, all you have to do is find them. :)

I hope some of that helped. Don't blame yourself for what actions others take.

[Callwaiting]

Even if this is a rant. I need to say something here.
I understand how you feel, I felt the same way when I was younger and being picked on. Honestly, I know you want to show them all your angry and aren't a pushover etc.
And I don't blame you, I felt the same way. Now I don't know about you, but I'm not a fighter, I can do it good enough, but its not in me, I'm not a natural fighter. So doing that in front of them would only encourage them further, so I didn't do it.

As I said I do'nt know what your like, you may be able to pull it off, do all the rebel hard nut stuff in front of them and gain some respec'.
I know you want to do it, but tbh I can't see how it would help you in any way. You'll end up having people who are perfectly nice and decent thinking your a twat becuase you are angry to everyone etc.

And suicide isn't the way out either. How old are you? You have so much life yet. And you only get one shot at it, its worth living out to the full don't you think? Yes there are bastards in the world, but there are a lot of nice, good honest ones as well, all you have to do is find them. :)

I hope some of that helped. Don't blame yourself for what actions others take.

I'm the same age as you.. yup I thought it would've stopped by now.

I really don't think I can pull it off, I just feel like it sometimes because it'd give me some peace.

Thanks for your reply :) it made me feel a little better to actually see someone say that they'dve been through the same thing.

btw how did it stop for you? did you actually do anything or did it just fade away over time?

[Requin]

I have no idea. Sorry. I think it just faded over time, as people got more mature, they lost interest.

There's still the odd snyde remark behind my back, but that happens to everyone, so its normal. I guess it just faded. I just ignored them really, took the high ground. Made me feel better thinking that I was better than them. :)
It'll fade.

[thedudeman]

ive been through the same, i used to be the school freak, chubby, stupid, stinky, ugly, and i was at a school for overly rich kids(public) and they wouldnt even talk to me, just treat me like a freak, girls wouldnt even look at me, i was a walking laughingstock, i got into satanism and began dressing in all black and wearing six six six on my head, made friends with a few other "freaks" and scared all my other classmates shitless, it gave me a feeling of power, now ive come out of that stage but i can tell you if it wasnt for the satanism i might be the same, find something to make yourself feel above these assholes, religion, sport, skateboarding, something that they revere but cant do, i started to learn to rap recently, and have grown very good, i rap circles around kids who think there the shit and they treat me with respect now, all i had to do was find out what the majority of kids like, get good at it, and then show them up, respect done

im still the school freak, but nobody makes fun of me anymore and i have a large amount of friends now, it will work

[Hyper]

Your way of thinking is incorrect & opposite in my view..

The people who do bad things to you wont problably realize shit, they'll either have a laugh about it or just forget it in 2 weeks - because most of them are assholes from birth and also have assholes replacing their brains, maybe a few don't but their cowards and run-alongs

And people who are singled out and targeted are mostly intelligent one way or another and have the potential to be much more than averege and far from boring.

And you ending your life quicly and insigifcantly wouldn't be a perfect compliment to anything it would just be a shame loss of all the potential you had as a human being.