BeautifulSilence
August 4th, 2009, 05:50 PM
Well, it's been over eight weeks for me now, and - I know I've said this before - I really don't think I'll turn back.
I am just a lot happier with myself, and considering how low I've been in the past (that's around seven major suicide attempts) it just goes to show that there will be a day for everyone, where you can feel better.
I had to go through a lot of shit before I came any where near where I am now, but I believe I'm a stronger person for it.
I do have to say that I probably couldn't be this confident without having sought help first. And yeah, at the beginning I found myself thinking "This is major BullShit!" Here's an outline of what happened.
-Late December I was reported to the school nurse about self harm
-Late April she referred me to Mental Health Service for Youths [MHSY]
-May I had my first interview with the MHSY
-Immediately, I was referred to a strengthening families course (my relationship with my mother was found to be the main problem)
-June I asked to be referred into a LGBT group
-July the family course ended and I became a member of the LGBT project
-August I believe I've "recovered" and have loads of new friends :D
The support I have gotten from my family has just been so great. I know it's hard (I cried for hours) but you should really try to tell your parents. And getting involved in a social group has just helped my confidence so much, only one of them really knows about my past with S/H and that's because I've been friends with her for years. So they take me without thinking I'm just that "freak". And with this new confidence, I can go on to a new life at college and again, be who I really am behind the scars.
Another thing that I love right now, is that the "superficial" scarring on my arm has completely disappeared. So until I wear shorts or strappy tops, I don't get the dreaded question.
Just remember that you need support, more than just VT, you need physical support, to get through this properly. And your life has changed everyone else's forever, and that's a good thing.
:hug: :hug2: Good luck guys <3
I am just a lot happier with myself, and considering how low I've been in the past (that's around seven major suicide attempts) it just goes to show that there will be a day for everyone, where you can feel better.
I had to go through a lot of shit before I came any where near where I am now, but I believe I'm a stronger person for it.
I do have to say that I probably couldn't be this confident without having sought help first. And yeah, at the beginning I found myself thinking "This is major BullShit!" Here's an outline of what happened.
-Late December I was reported to the school nurse about self harm
-Late April she referred me to Mental Health Service for Youths [MHSY]
-May I had my first interview with the MHSY
-Immediately, I was referred to a strengthening families course (my relationship with my mother was found to be the main problem)
-June I asked to be referred into a LGBT group
-July the family course ended and I became a member of the LGBT project
-August I believe I've "recovered" and have loads of new friends :D
The support I have gotten from my family has just been so great. I know it's hard (I cried for hours) but you should really try to tell your parents. And getting involved in a social group has just helped my confidence so much, only one of them really knows about my past with S/H and that's because I've been friends with her for years. So they take me without thinking I'm just that "freak". And with this new confidence, I can go on to a new life at college and again, be who I really am behind the scars.
Another thing that I love right now, is that the "superficial" scarring on my arm has completely disappeared. So until I wear shorts or strappy tops, I don't get the dreaded question.
Just remember that you need support, more than just VT, you need physical support, to get through this properly. And your life has changed everyone else's forever, and that's a good thing.
:hug: :hug2: Good luck guys <3