Relapse any fucking minute

[Triceratops]

I have gone for too long with it.
The thoughts of cramming a toothbrush down my throat and vomiting seems more appealing by the day.

Fuck this.
It's too tempting.

I said I was recovering, but I also said that I could snap back into my old habits at any unexpected time. I knew it.

I dislike myself too much to care.
I'm too proud to care.
I'm too selfish to care.

I want this.

[Bougainvillea]

You can't, Marcie!
I don't know you, but, you're my friend. And seeing anyone go through this hurts. Try and think about something else! My dog! Minnie Mouse. What you're going to wear tomorrow. Anything. Keep your mind occupied.

[ShatteredWings]

:hug:

marcie you're stronger than this. you know it. it's easy to slip back into old habits i know but you are able to keep out of it

[nick]

Marcie, just hope you can almost feel the people out here wanting you to stay strong and willing you to do so. Know that you have our love.

Nick

[TigerLily]

Marcie, you can beat this.. you don't want to do this hun..
I know I don't know you particularly well, but it is clear to see what a strong, caring, beautiful person you are... and you can overcome this, leaving it all behind on the way to a promising future, a future of success and hope, where you can say fuck off to all those who ever doubted you, remember?
Just know that you have our love, no matter what pain you are going through, and there are so many people here who think you're amazing enough that they'll stand right behind you every step of the way :)
:hug:

[Triceratops]

No matter how long I hold this off, it keeps crawling back to me, worse each day that goes on.

I can't do it.
I am crumbling, majorly.

I don't feel sane, pure, beautiful or important.
I feel negativity.
If I release all this bullshit, I'll feel better.
But I won't make this better, I'm making this worse.

You have no idea how much I hate this and how much this is tearing me apart, as dramatic as that sounds.
I fucking hate it so much it's unreal.

[Beautiful Obsession]

you can do this babee,, just think how you will feel if you do cram a toothbrush down you throat and make yourself puke, all that time and effort for nothing..

please just resist it, talk to someone who can help babee...

pm me if ya wanna chat :D x

[ShatteredWings]

No matter how long I hold this off, it keeps crawling back to me, worse each day that goes on.

I can't do it.
I am crumbling, majorly.

I don't feel sane, pure, beautiful or important.
I feel negativity.
If I release all this bullshit, I'll feel better.
But I won't make this better, I'm making this worse.

You have no idea how much I hate this and how much this is tearing me apart, as dramatic as that sounds.
I fucking hate it so much it's unreal.
:console: relax hun. okay?
you can do it. and yes you are beautiful, and important. can't say much on "sane, pure". Sanity is overrated, and purity doesn't exist like that.

you need to relice, but puking inst going to do it. talk to someone. go for a run, do something thats gooing to relice stress :hug: