Who cares anyway?

[GreyxRainbow]

Over the few weeks, this question has been flying around trough my mind. Who cares anyway? Who cares if I make a few cuts more? Who cares if I bleed to death? Who really cares, deep in their hearts? Surely not my 'friends'. Not my family, they won't notice me being sad. Not anybody else I know.

Besides, I don't care about this all. I like the pain, I like the blood, I like the wounds, I like what I'm doing to myself. Then why do I take it away by trying to stop self harm?

Yeah, try to hurt me, you can't hurt me any more than I already do. Try to leave me, you can't leave me any more than my sanity already does. Try to stop me, you can't try any harder than my mind does. But the feelings inside of me, they won't be stopped. They can't be stopped.

I wish I could say I don't care, believing and meaning it to the fulliest, so I can just let the pain hit me, let the blood flow out of me and let my last breath escape. But I cannot. Somewhere hidden deep inside of me, there is this part that still believes I can survive. This part of me that believes in me, that I can win this battle against myself and the razor. This part of me that keeps me going, even when I don't want to. This part of me that makes me feel just a bit better. Is it sanity? Is it love? Is it hope? I don't know.

I do know that there are people who do care about me, about my life and who don't want me to die. I just don't believe it. I know that there are people who love me and try to help me. I don't believe it, but why? Because I don't want to believe it? I think that is it.

But still, even though I know that there are people who care, I still keep asking myself this one question: Who cares anyway?

I'm sorry for the massive rant, but I had to get it out of me.

[Project Delta]

Becca i'm pretty sure you know how i feel about you. I know you can beat this and i KNOW its not what you want to be doing for the rest of your life.

I Care
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[MadManWithaBox]

i care. really i do. it pains me to see someone who is as nice as you seem to be in pain. if you need to talk, just drop me a line anytime.

[Holding On*]

I care (:

[Beautiful Obsession]

Listen, i care about you, we all do, and so does your family, and your friends, and it would break there hearts if one day it all went to far, you slipped ad cut to deep, you bleed to death, trust me people do care babee, i know right now your feeling like no-one likes you and your life is over, but it isnt, you'v got a whole lifetime to live so please get help.

i know you think you dont want help but deep deep down you do, you want to be free of cutting, you want to go out without hiding those hatred scars all other your body, you want to be free of the razor that you carry around with you. Wouldnt you want to get mad, and just scream, not cut?

please speak to someone, your mum, your dad, a friend, a teacher, they all care about you, theres only so much we can do on the internet, we can give you the advice, but in order to get better you need to follow it, we can support you every step of the way, but you need to help yourself,

please just tell someone and thats it, you'v got the help you need to get better..

all you need to do is admit to YOURSELF you need help:D

If you wanna talk.. Pm me :) x

[Harley Quinn]

i care

[dstnyisurs]

I care.
You are strong, you can beat this, and that little part of you is right! Cutting and depression is a nasty bitch, but she's a good looking one. The idea of cutting and dying appeals to you because the pain and hurt is addictive. The whole deal is addictive. You are better then this. You can beat this. I have the upmost faith in you. There is so much that you could be if you gave life the chance. You have to fight - just cause people care about you and no one wants to see you go so sadly from this world. Your life is so precious. Everyones is. You can beat this.
If you need me, feel free to talk anytime.

[Josh9961]

everyone here cares. Its what we do. Its tough sometimes. I know I like it. I like to see the blood, feel the bite of steel and wash the trouble away. I don't really believe I can quit. But I have to because now everyone thinks I'm a suicide risk. PArtially they're right about that. But just cos you like it doesnt make it right. There is nothing more valuable than a human life. And I know taht i personally dont want you mising out on the rest of yours. Everyone here cares. I care. I cut. I bleed. I still smile. I try to stop and it works for a while. And it might be for the best. it might not. But I care about you xx If you ever want to talk, about anything happy or sad, or if you need someone to support you, PM me. Im always around x