Do I have depression, or is this normal?

[lostinspace]

Now, last term and the end of school year, I was really depressed, so I went online and had all the criteria for Depression in abundance. But then, during the holidays, I was fine. But then one kid says "your gay" like people do, then

BAM!!!

I was back in 'that place' again. I was spiraling down again. Until I came to a cliff. And I swear to god, I was gonna jump. I could feel the air. Whoosh. Then.. blackness. Not so bad. My muscles were tense, I was about to jump. Yes, I could feel the air. But I was interrupted. My sister came along. So I pretended I was just looking and walked away...

Now I know I say all that, but would I have actually jumped? I don't know. Is this depression or teenage moodiness?

[2D]

Sounds like depression to me man. Just like mine too. I lost it with those same comments. I think you should talk to your parents and see a doctor to see if you really have depression. :) I hope this helps. I'm always here if you need to talk. Just PM me.

[Triceratops]

This is more than likely down to adolescent hormones. During puberty your moods are going to be up and down quite regularly. Feeling depressed is such a common and wide spread emotion within teenagers, some experience it worse than others and can trigger off in to worse circumstances.

[Blue63]

I also do think that it is probably just hormones, I mean I have these moods where I want to jump off a cliff to, where it seems like everything is hopeless and life isn't worth living. In fact lately I've been feeling that more than often. Regardless of what your "diagnosis" is I think that it may be a good thing to talk to someone about it. Whether it be a professional (ie psychiatrist whatever), a good friend, or someone on here. I know it helps when I talk about it, and I think it could help you. Don't hesitate to send me a PM if you need it.

Also if you are still worried that you have depression or it may develop into it, maybe casually ask your parents about family history. I know I have a lot of High Anxiety and Clinical Depression running in my family, and I'm aware of it. So you might just want to ask your parents about it.

[Bougainvillea]

This is more than likely down to adolescent hormones. During puberty your moods are going to be up and down quite regularly. Feeling depressed is such a common and wide spread emotion within teenagers, some experience it worse than others and can trigger off in to worse circumstances.

Marcie's right.

[lostinspace]

Ah good. This is nice to know. Thanks!

[Moneyjr]

hmm i kinda has that situation but.. a lot more intense..

it seems like you do not enjoy being teased period either if its sexuality.. or made fun of.. or just being called dumb..

i can say suicide.. a very scary thought...
i highly do not recommend it even though I've tried attempts as well.. it is very difficult to grasp happiness if you do have depression.
the depression im dealing with is
Serotonin depression and could be of what you have if your feeling down from being teased.
but unsure.. depression comes from everywhere and every person diagnosed is different because our brains are just different.. stupid sex genes ..
anyways


solution: (talking): find someone to talk to .. someone who will just listen and will not responded back with negative impulse.. (talking help you feel better about your self)

(Therapy): therapist help you give insight about your self to fix errors because its 50% your fault you feel like this ....50% other peoples fault for putting you in this environment
so you need to make it 100% self controll where you are balanced of everything ....where you leave out the 50% of the people making you feel this way and leaving the 50% of self confidence .


(masturbation): masturbation relaxes you and allows you to think.. its get your mind off of horrible thoughts and you become stress free.



the only person who can make you cry the only person can cause you pain is your self... literally.. i don't see how that's hard to grasp.. 50% of depression is your fault 50% of it is the people that are helping it... not people read?

[Hughesy]

Well there isn't enough information to tell if you really have depressive tendencies, but either way, we can't have you feeling like this, consult your inner self, ask yourself if you feel like you really need help, we can't tell you if you need it or not, you need to be able to decide yourself. I used to cut myself when I was your age, not because I truly wanted to die, but because it 'validated' my existence, I was so stupid and used that as my way of helping myself, it wasn't until I grew older that I realised what I was really doing and I wish I had have sought help earlier.

Saying you were good during teh holidays is amazingly similar to me, everyday waking up to the same old routine, the same old, go to school, learn nothing, enjoy nothing, hate everything world. I didn't have a huge basis of friends and it made me mad, I wasn't 'cool' in my early years of highschool, I was picked on and beaten up, school ultimately was my reason for depression. Now that I'm out of school I'm happier than I've ever been with a decent job and good friends. Find what makes you feel how you do, and try and work against it.