Rape

[Rawr]

when i was younger my foster brother he sexually molested me and he raped me this was from the time i was 2-8 i have to go to a conclur and i tell her im fine but its all i think about i replay what happen over and over in my head i dream about it and wake up in a cold sweat and i my grades are slipping and i don't know what to do i cant talk about it with my conclur but i have a feeling this is what is making me want to cut and die

i now live back with the family and my foster brother is right down the hall when he comes out of his room and talks to me i get this sick feeling and want to pass out or throw up when i walk into the room i do pass out and i jump when ever he touches me

[nick]

Its not at clear from what you've said above (which would be easier to understand with a little punctuation) whether you've ever told anyone what happened. If you haven't you need to pluck up the courage to tell your councellor about this NOW. Dont keep it to yourself, you need to bring it into the open to be able to start getting over it.

It seems quite wrong that you should have to live with your foster brother and deal with having him around every day if this has happened to you. Really, you cant deal with it without opening up to someone.

Best of luck and best wishes

[Rawr]

i cant tell her i hate her she doesent help at all

[Rogue27]

Yes you can. She has heard that from so many people. Trust me. I have gone through the same thing. I was molested by my cousin and he almost raped me. I go to a counselor and it helps to tell her my thoughts. If you don't tell your counselor you will not get better. To heal you must tell everything. I see my cousin and I do not get scared anymore. I no he got help and wont do anythingagain. You just need to tell your counselor. Let her help. If you ever need to talk pm me anytime. I will answer back as soon as I can.

[Rawr]

i cant tell her she scares me she will be mad

[nick]

i cant tell her she scares me she will be mad
Your councellor would not be mad. You could tell your parents but they would be more likely to be mad at first and acuse you of lying or whatever. Your councellor would not do that and is there to help. Even if you dont like them as a person they are still there to be on your side and to help.

[Rawr]

no she will make me go away agian or yell at me i just ugh

[YesterdaysNews]

it sounds like you need a different counseller. Im very sorry this happened to you, it must be hard having to live with him but you have to tell someone. and if your counseller is honestly like that, i suggest finding a new one, shes supposed to support you and help you cope with this, not yell and be mad. maybe you should try to tell her and see what happens.

[Rawr]

we dont have another one i can aforade and can anyone tell me how to stop thinking about it 24 7

[Capote]

First, I think you really need to talk to someone about this. Do you have nightmares? Post traumatic stress?Anyways, about your step brother. I would simply avoid him. There is absolutely no point of spending time with him since you're traumatized. Also, try to keep busy. If you keep your brain active, you will mostly forget about your childhood memories. Good luck!

[Rawr]

yeah i have night mears and i cant stay away from him ive tryed but i cant i dont know how

[joethestar17]

U should like tell ur parents to keep ur foster brothers away from u and just try to think about other things other than the rape stuff... Like think happy thoughts lol

[Rawr]

ive tryed that but it really dont work i see it all the time

[nachtspiegel]

If you don't mind, there's something I'd really like to know: how old is he, and how old are you? Also, depending on where you live, there may be a mental health service that provides counseling regardless of your ability to pay, and there are more possible avenues if you're under eighteen.
I know that it's hard to tell, but in the end, it will make your life better. It's so hard to see the light of life when you have something as hard as this hanging over your head.

[Rawr]

well im 16 now and he is 23 we were younger when it happend

[joethestar17]

Doesn't he live alone? Why is he still around u guys alot?

[Rawr]

he lives here at home beacuse with his recored he cant get a job so im stuck with him

[Beautiful Obsession]

you relli need to tell someone bbe, i know wot ur goin through i got sexually abused and raped by my nans husband over and over from the age of like 3 and its still going on now.. and it also makes me cut, but i know why you dont want to tell, i feel like if i tell now i will get blamed and they will think i had a part in it because its taken so long for me to tell, i dunno about you babee,, well if your seeing a councler then you should tell her bbe..

if u need to talk feel free to PM me :) x

[NeoKitai]

Either tell someone, or do it my way. Best for you to tell someone... other than your councellor.

[diamond jetstream]

first i know it is wrong to get revenge on someone but it would probably put your mind at ease and help you to stop thinking about it and you probably would not want to die because you would feel even.second it might help to tell your best friend and maybe have a shoulder to cry on

[BuryYourFlame]

first i know it is wrong to get revenge on someone but it would probably put your mind at ease and help you to stop thinking about it and you probably would not want to die because you would feel even.second it might help to tell your best friend and maybe have a shoulder to cry on

Revenge is never the answer. Trying to physically hurt him would only end up in her getting hurt worse.

If you want this to end, your only option is to tell someone, maybe a close friend first, and then eventually your counselor, I can assure you they will not be mad at you, you have done nothing wrong.