Holding On*
July 27th, 2009, 08:40 PM
Right so I sat and watched three films in a row. Nothing too unusual? Well they were all based on lesbians. Teens, who discoveed their sexuality etc etc etc.
I hae thought for a good few months now that I am indeed Bi, but I always just thought I was attracted to both sexes equally. I have had boyfriends in the past and one girlfriend more recently... We broke up when my Mum found out abou it and my self harm etc etc, and we just thought it wouldbe easier like that...
I missher though... and watching them films I have reaised how less and less I am into guys now... I think I am getting to realise that I am more attracted to girls and I am no way against gay people etc, but as many of you probab ly have, I grew up imaging that I would get married have some kids, live in some nice house somewhere ya know? The thought of... the thought of not complying to society's norms and values is concerning me, and I know that what I feel... for other girls is true, and that it is nothing to be ashamd off, but I guess I am just woried what... what my parents think...
My Dad, I think would be fine with it, I don't see that he would be that bothered. Yes he might be a bit '=/' about it at first, but I don't think he would be negative... where as my Mum... Step dad and brothers... well... my brothers are DEFINATLY negative about same sex stuff, and although my mum and step dad first met while working in a Gay club, I am convinced they ae anti-gay too. I know for sure that Dan is, and I am about 95% sure Mum is... but then again I could just be imagining it, as I have always been closer to Dad then Mum and yeh...
The reason why I think I am more... lesbian then bi or straight is that I have been looking around.. ya know, just generally as walking about places, and I keep looking at certain girls tinking, oh shes really fit and stuff, and then there has been nothing for any of the guys. And I am not talking just a few weeks of this, this has been about 6 months at least... Not that long either n the grand scheme of life, but seeing as I only finally realised that I could be Bi, about 3 months back... :/
I don't really know why I am writing this as I have no real question to ask, and not much you can say in reply, I guess I just needed to get it off my chest, and hopefully feel like I am not the only person thinking about these sorts of things...
Feel free to PM me if you wish...
I hae thought for a good few months now that I am indeed Bi, but I always just thought I was attracted to both sexes equally. I have had boyfriends in the past and one girlfriend more recently... We broke up when my Mum found out abou it and my self harm etc etc, and we just thought it wouldbe easier like that...
I missher though... and watching them films I have reaised how less and less I am into guys now... I think I am getting to realise that I am more attracted to girls and I am no way against gay people etc, but as many of you probab ly have, I grew up imaging that I would get married have some kids, live in some nice house somewhere ya know? The thought of... the thought of not complying to society's norms and values is concerning me, and I know that what I feel... for other girls is true, and that it is nothing to be ashamd off, but I guess I am just woried what... what my parents think...
My Dad, I think would be fine with it, I don't see that he would be that bothered. Yes he might be a bit '=/' about it at first, but I don't think he would be negative... where as my Mum... Step dad and brothers... well... my brothers are DEFINATLY negative about same sex stuff, and although my mum and step dad first met while working in a Gay club, I am convinced they ae anti-gay too. I know for sure that Dan is, and I am about 95% sure Mum is... but then again I could just be imagining it, as I have always been closer to Dad then Mum and yeh...
The reason why I think I am more... lesbian then bi or straight is that I have been looking around.. ya know, just generally as walking about places, and I keep looking at certain girls tinking, oh shes really fit and stuff, and then there has been nothing for any of the guys. And I am not talking just a few weeks of this, this has been about 6 months at least... Not that long either n the grand scheme of life, but seeing as I only finally realised that I could be Bi, about 3 months back... :/
I don't really know why I am writing this as I have no real question to ask, and not much you can say in reply, I guess I just needed to get it off my chest, and hopefully feel like I am not the only person thinking about these sorts of things...
Feel free to PM me if you wish...