Need advice badly...

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Alright so this is my first post here and sadly I don't have time to introduce myself in full so let me quickly explain my situation so as to maximize the amount of replies I get.

I've been cutting on and off for several years mostly without suicidal intent and have also managed to have nobody I know catch on to my problems. Now I know the healthiest thing to do would be to just come out and tell someone but that idea terrifies me more than death at times. So much that last year I poured boiling water over the arm of mine that had the most noticable scarring simply to avoid being found out at my yearly doctor physical appointment.

Well this Thursday I have my yearly physical, and since I have already skipped out on this year's appointment twice there is really no way to get my parents to fall for another excuse without raising suspicions.

So now I'm going crazy, I have been considering attempting suicide all week (if only to fail and have my problems found out in a more businesslike environment than in a room alone with a family doctor)

So I guess i'm asking you all this; what would a regular MD do if, when he/she had me remove my shirt for the checkup, he/she were to see my body covered in obviously self inflicted scars as I am. Would they tell my parents and send me off to a psychologist? Is there some sort of doctor-patient confidentiallity they have to uphold? (doubt it, I'm a minor) And finally if you were in my situation, where a purposfully failed suicide attempt (and the risk that I might NOT fail) sounds better than being exposed in an awful and familiar environment in front of one of my parents.

So there's my situation, it's strange and my solutions are dangerous and fucked up, so please someone tell me what I should do here.

[Natoja12]

you really need to stop cutting. i have no idea what the doctor will say but i actually had my doctors appt. today, and maybe i didnt have to take my shirt off cuz im a girl. i dunno. but just wear a t-shirt with a hoodie or something dont wear two long sleeved things the doctor will catch on.

[dstnyisurs]

Love, an attempted suicide will get you in a worse predicament then you are in now, because you will definitly have to face others knowing, you would have to face a counselor, and you would have to face your parents. Also, you could be crippled for life depending on the method. Don't try it. You could end up dead, and no one wants that.
There is patient/doctor confidentiality, but if they suspect your life is in danger they are required to tell someone and they will. So as long as they don't think your life is in danger, they will not tell your parents. They may and probably will, if scars are noticed, ask you if you want a referral to a psyciatrist.
Try wearing a long sleeved shirt, and simply seeming hesitant like you're self conscience about your body being shown, and they may not make you take your shirt off. Mostly all a doctor wants to do in an examination is listen to your heart beat, take your blood pressure, may check your crotch, and all the ear/eye/nose/mouth stuff. You may be able to advoid taking your shirt off and showing self injury.
I strongly encourage telling someone, though.

[sweetxnovember]

Well let me just say that i had to go in for a sports physical, for school at my doctors office. When he asked me to get undressed i was freaking out, but i only cut on my left wrist. I held my arms at my side praying to god that he wouldn't need to do anything with them. Sure enough, he did, saw my wrists and said ohhh what happened to your wrist? I just told him it was from the cat. (Please, a cat couldn't scratch that bad.) And he believed me. It was over.

He didn't tell my mom, nothing happened. I had to go back months later for a minor procedure, but he didn't say anything even then. (I really wish he would have though) As much as I'm ashamed of cutting myself and don't want anyone to see, i want help more than anything. Please don't do anything stupid. Like dstnyisurs said, a suicide attempt will get you into a worse spot than you're in now.

Take care of yourself, and remember that your family and friends love you and want to help you if anything's wrong.

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I know the general response will be a unanimous "hell no!" but why is it better to go on harming myself without the courage to tell anybody about it than to make a few real deep cuts, walk into a hospital, and basically be signed up for therapy without having to say a word. Right now it's the only way I can tell anyone about what I do besides the anonymous way I'm doing it here.

Reading that it sounds crazy and illogical, harming myself more to make myself stop harming but it's the only way I can see myself EVER owning up to what I do.

[Discomposure]

Well maybe this could be your time to tell someone. You might hear this a lot but even though it doesn't actually help the cutting, by somebody knowing it lifts the pressure of hiding it from people, and it can give you someone to talk to. You will find with most people they will be sensetive to this. They might not know what to say straight away but you need to tell someone. suicide will make things worse, imagine the person who would have to find you, youve got to think about that to. But really the best thing for you to do would be tell someone, trust me. I didn't for ages and when i did it's so much better than hiding it. It may seem strange at first knowing people know and wondering what they think about you, but really they wont think bad of you and all they will want to do is help you.
Hope i helped :)
pm me anytime :)

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Well the appointment is tomorrow morning.

Guess I'll just go with whatever happens, I'd be amazed if the doctor didn't see my scars so I guess its pretty much guaranteed I'll be signed up for therapy of some sort come tomorrow afternoon...

Wish me luck