I just don't know

[The Killjoy]

I don't know whats wrong with me, it seems like some days I'm completely fine, yet some days I feel like there is nothing worth living for. I'm homeschooled and don't really have any friends. I don't feel like my mother could care less if I dropped off the face of the earth. There are lots of times when I just want to die, and it's hard not to just give in. I feel trapped and I really don't know what to do, I feel very weak for posting this but I just need to vent. Thanks.

[Viral Death]

Its okay I went through the same thing as you. Hang in there life will get better. I think in life there are ups and downs. You are going through a down! I just hope this down isnt bad to the point of suicide. I care for you. You will hit and up soon! Just hang in there just walk around outside and walk to a park and talk to some of the guys and befriend them. I care!

[dstnyisurs]

You're not weak, love. You're strong.
Does your town have a community center of some sort? You could take a class there, or do some activities and get to know some people your age. (: It could be a great way to get yourself out there and give you something to do.
Maybe you could find something for your mom and you to do together, so you could spend some time and really just have fun. Something totally unexpected that makes you both smile. Find some discount amusement park tickets, or challenge her to a basketball game at your local courts. Be totally random.
Also, perhaps if you notice her for example, reading a book, ask her about the book and if it's good and what she likes about the author, so on. A few simple conversation starters, or a silly activity for you two to do may make her see you in a new light, and care about you a little more (or at least show she cares about you).
Summer is hard, and it's especially hard if you're homeschooled and don't know a schoolfull of kids, but there is stuff to do. (: You can talk to me anytime, if you want as well.
You can get past this. Everyone feels down sometimes, some more then others. It'll feel better in time. You just have to work at it. Dieing won't fix anything. You can beat this.
I'm here if you want to talk. Excuse this post, it's all over the place. I'm not concentrating very well tonight.

[nachtspiegel]

You're not weak, love. You're strong.
Does your town have a community center of some sort? You could take a class there, or do some activities and get to know some people your age. (: It could be a great way to get yourself out there and give you something to do.
Maybe you could find something for your mom and you to do together, so you could spend some time and really just have fun. Something totally unexpected that makes you both smile. Find some discount amusement park tickets, or challenge her to a basketball game at your local courts. Be totally random.
Also, perhaps if you notice her for example, reading a book, ask her about the book and if it's good and what she likes about the author, so on. A few simple conversation starters, or a silly activity for you two to do may make her see you in a new light, and care about you a little more (or at least show she cares about you).
Summer is hard, and it's especially hard if you're homeschooled and don't know a schoolfull of kids, but there is stuff to do. (: You can talk to me anytime, if you want as well.
You can get past this. Everyone feels down sometimes, some more then others. It'll feel better in time. You just have to work at it. Dieing won't fix anything. You can beat this.
I'm here if you want to talk. Excuse this post, it's all over the place. I'm not concentrating very well tonight.

Right on. She covered pretty much everything I wanted to say. Socializing is very important. Is it your choice to homeschool or does your mother make that decision?