Just Tired of love.

[The Batman]

I hate myself, I hate my life, and i just want to die somewhere. Why can't I get guys, why is it that I'm not attractive and that everyone that see's me hates me. I'm so tired of living a life where I'm destined to be by myself. If you don't have love, what do you have? If you'll never have love, who will you have? I've been trying since I was 17 years old to get someone and I'm tired of trying whenever i get close to a guy he's either straight, thinks i'm ugly, or is a pervert that will screw anything with legs. The only person that made me feel wanted was a 49 year old guy I met on craigslist but I don't do perverts so i got rid of him. Now I meet this awesome guy who's sweet, caring, and kind but as soon as he sees me he's gone. What little self esteem i did have is gone I'm just done trying love is a 2 way street but mine is at a dead end.

[Atonement]

Don't expect others to love you if you can't love yourself first. To be able to have a healthy relationship, you have to be happy with being single first, then see the person as an addition, a supplement to your happiness, not a solution. Be happy being single and be happy with you first, then take 'em as they come. As dirty as I didn't mean that to sound...

[The Batman]

I use to love myself back a month or two ago i was finally happy with myself, but just being around people bringing you down all your life it's just hard to get back up. All of my life I've had people tell me that I'm never going to find anyone, that I'm to ugly for anyone to love me, and that I'll probably live with my mom for the rest of my life. And all of that came from my family. I could handle hearing it at school i just learned to ignore it till the day is over, but then i would hear it at home too and when i started crying i was yelled at by my dad for that. I want to love myself and I want to be happy in my own skin but it's just hard to do when you don't like what you see in the mirror.

[YourFriend]

Sorry to hear that. :( Well you'll have to find someone eventually. I know how hard it is to find someone when you're homosexual, but just don't give up.