Ummm....

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I'm not sure where to put this. (like usual) But the website that Vindication posted up called halfofus.com has this little seven question thing at the bottom of every page I think. And I answered it and then it sent me to some Duke Medical University site and I took this quiz thing and it then said I am suicidal with major depression. That can't be right. I mean...I thought this was normal or something. Fighting to get up in the morning...fighting to smile, eat, sleep, do anything. And suicidal thoughts come and go. I didn't think I had a problem or anything...I'm not sure what I'm exactly getting at here. Guess I just needed to tell someone. And to make things better one of my older brothers just got back from being in China for 2 years, and I have to act all happy. Don't get me wrong I miss him it's just.....one more person to fake a smile for. One thing forsure is that I don't wanna see a doctor or anything. I've made it this far. I can do the rest on my own too. I guess that was more of a vent than anything.

[Atonement]

Just for you, I'd like to quote some statistics I've found over all the research I do to help people:

Many who attempt suicide never seek professional care.

For young people 15-24 years old, suicide is the third leading cause of death.

80% of people that seek treatment for depression are treated successfully.

15% of those who are clinically depressed die by suicide.

The strongest risk factor for suicide is depression.

Suicide can be prevented through education and public awareness.

Okay, after reading this, especially the one's about treatment, you still don't want help? Do you just want to be another statistic?

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Just for you, I'd like to quote some statistics I've found over all the research I do to help people:

Many who attempt suicide never seek professional care.

For young people 15-24 years old, suicide is the third leading cause of death.

80% of people that seek treatment for depression are treated successfully.

15% of those who are clinically depressed die by suicide.

The strongest risk factor for suicide is depression.

Suicide can be prevented through education and public awareness.

Okay, after reading this, especially the one's about treatment, you still don't want help? Do you just want to be another statistic?

Well I just got done talking it over with someone and he suggested that it might be caused by puberty. Cuz it just occured outta the blue when i was around 13 and it's still going on so hopefully it'll go away soon right? I mean...I'm not insane...I don't need help. I've made it this far. I can do the rest without mind altering drugs. I pray.

[Atonement]

Well I just got done talking it over with someone and he suggested that it might be caused by puberty. Cuz it just occured outta the blue when i was around 13 and it's still going on so hopefully it'll go away soon right? I mean...I'm not insane...I don't need help. I've made it this far. I can do the rest without mind altering drugs. I pray.

I thought the same. I was going to kill myself at the time. I was like "Psh, I don't need a doctor, I can handle it." Then I found myself holding a knife to my wrist barely drawing blood ready to slowly dig in and pull. Then I realized, I need help. You need help. Being depressed isn't normal. You need to get help.

You can do this on your own, you're right. You know how you're going to be able to do this on your own? By asking for help and seeking treatment. That is the best way you can help you.

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I thought the same. I was going to kill myself at the time. I was like "Psh, I don't need a doctor, I can handle it." Then I found myself holding a knife to my wrist barely drawing blood ready to slowly dig in and pull. Then I realized, I need help. You need help. Being depressed isn't normal. You need to get help.

You can do this on your own, you're right. You know how you're going to be able to do this on your own? By asking for help and seeking treatment. That is the best way you can help you.

But then I'll be treated like a freak...I just want to be normal. To enjoy a sunset, the birds singing, the smell of rain. But if drugs or a psychiatrist help me do that then everyone will treat me differently...like I'm crazy.

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But then I'll be treated like a freak...I just want to be normal. To enjoy a sunset, the birds singing, the smell of rain. But if drugs or a psychiatrist help me do that then everyone will treat me differently...like I'm crazy.

Who said anyone has to know? Your family loves you and I assume they will respect your privacy if you directly ask them not to say anything. The only people that know about my suicidal thoughts, depression, cutting, etc. are the people that I told. Period.

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Who said anyone has to know? Your family loves you and I assume they will respect your privacy if you directly ask them not to say anything. The only people that know about my suicidal thoughts, depression, cutting, etc. are the people that I told. Period.

Really? I never actually thought of that. But how do I get help? Just like ask? And what if the meds or whatever happens make me worse? Or what if this is just gonna stop on it's own? I'd love to not take anything. I grew up with that and lemme tell you. Some bad stuff happens with those sometimes.

[Atonement]

Really? I never actually thought of that. But how do I get help? Just like ask? And what if the meds or whatever happens make me worse? Or what if this is just gonna stop on it's own? I'd love to not take anything. I grew up with that and lemme tell you. Some bad stuff happens with those sometimes.

How to start getting help: http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=39704

Meds are designed to help. Rarely will it make you worse. If it does, you need to just talk to your doctor and they will fix it immediately. Some SSRI (anti depressants etc.) carry increased suicide risk as a symptom, but not always, so a doctor is aware of that and will take that into account with you. Its not just going to stop, clinical depression doesn't stop on its own. its chemical. They may not put you on meds, they may just want you to do some therapy.

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How to start getting help: http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=39704

Meds are designed to help. Rarely will it make you worse. If it does, you need to just talk to your doctor and they will fix it immediately. Some SSRI (anti depressants etc.) carry increased suicide risk as a symptom, but not always, so a doctor is aware of that and will take that into account with you. Its not just going to stop, clinical depression doesn't stop on its own. its chemical. They may not put you on meds, they may just want you to do some therapy.

And you're sure that no one would know?

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And you're sure that no one would know?

I can't make promises, but the doctor can't say anything, if you ask your parents, they should keep it to themselves, school officicals can't say anything. And even if someone did know, unless they are the spawn of Satan, they wouldn't make fun of you for it.

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I can't make promises, but the doctor can't say anything, if you ask your parents, they should keep it to themselves, school officicals can't say anything. And even if someone did know, unless they are the spawn of Satan, they wouldn't make fun of you for it.

You'd be surprised about people. A lot of them are pretty harsh. If I don't start feeling better in the next month I'll talk to my parents. But if I get any worse I'll go to them right away. Thanks abunch. :)