ErykaInspire.
July 21st, 2009, 07:02 PM
Rep/comments apprechiated. It took alot to write this..
The first day I saw you
On that bike you rode by
My heart beat so fast
I felt as high as the sky
You looked back and smiled
and scarlet coated my cheeks
My friends then told me
you've lived here for weeks
I seen you around town
and down at the courts
Even in the heat, you
wore jeans instead of shorts.
You were one of a kind
but just like me, too
Insecure and careful
with everything that you do
School soon started
and you walked right past
but looked back again
to see if my smile would last
My friends soon insisted
that I talked to you more
so I went to catch you
before you walked out the door
You smiled at me
and I looked down
you lifted my chin
and told me not to frown
We walked the block together
and you had so much to say
but mostly all you said was
"you were beautiful that day.."
I then realized
that he seen me crying
"even without makeup,
without even trying.."
A week or so later
he called me late
I knew what was coming
then he asked me on a date
The date was so perfect,
with flowers and a movie
we cuddled on the couch
and he told me with glee
"I've been thinking of this
for quite awhile
just seeing you
makes me break into a smile,
Think about this,
don't rush to reply
but i was wondering
if you'd give us a try?"
Without even thinking
I hugged him so tight
he kissed my forehead
and sighed with delight
I looked up at him
and he didn't pull away
I just kept staring
not knowing what to say
he leaned forward
and kissed me so lightly
my stomach did flips
and I thought I could fly
as the weeks went by
our relationship grew
I was in love
and everyone knew
whenever they seen me
he'd be holding my hand
Or i'd sit quietly
listening to his band
Friends never stopped talking
about how perfect we were
"you'll be together forever!"
They sounded so sure.
At almost a month
with that sweetheart of mine
I trusted him dearly
until he crossed the line
He pulled down my pants
like he has before
but the actions he forced
left me so sore
He knew my boundaries
and he just wouldn't stop
My knees buckled beneath me
to the ground I dropped
I tried to crawl away
but he pulled me right back
As sobs pounded my throat
strength I began to lack
When he was done
he gathered me against him
"i'm sorry, baby. Please forgive me"
the chances were slim
Needless to say,
this was right before school
so I picked myself up;
such a worthless tool
friends asked what was wrong
I just shrugged and looked down
he had his arm around me
refusing to frown
in the bathrooms
I threw up my heart
I flushed it away
i had fallen apart
He was my life
i trusted him so much
a heart is just
so easy to crush
Life since that day
hasn't been all that bad
I have my happy thoughts
but most are just sad
I still see him daily
he's in my class
but, boy, you did it,
my world did crash.
It's all thanks to you
and getting carried away
my heart is still scarred
to this very day.
Dedicated to Cody Allen Palmer..
Started dating 9.23.08. raped on 10.22.08. officially broke up on 10.24.08.
It's almost been a year now, but i'm now coming out with the truth. I've been telling everyone that it was Attempted.. and for lieing I apologize.
I was hoping it would help me forget.. but it only built up the feeling of self worthlessness. SO.. now everyone knows.. except my parents and friends..
I can't tell them, they'd press charges and I don't want the whole story coming up again. There's no proof, no witnessess, no nothing. So.. it'd be pointless.
Anyways.. thank you so much for reading this. And if something like this ever happens to you.. TELL! DON'T make the same mistakes I did by keeping it to myself. PM me if you ever need to talk<3
The first day I saw you
On that bike you rode by
My heart beat so fast
I felt as high as the sky
You looked back and smiled
and scarlet coated my cheeks
My friends then told me
you've lived here for weeks
I seen you around town
and down at the courts
Even in the heat, you
wore jeans instead of shorts.
You were one of a kind
but just like me, too
Insecure and careful
with everything that you do
School soon started
and you walked right past
but looked back again
to see if my smile would last
My friends soon insisted
that I talked to you more
so I went to catch you
before you walked out the door
You smiled at me
and I looked down
you lifted my chin
and told me not to frown
We walked the block together
and you had so much to say
but mostly all you said was
"you were beautiful that day.."
I then realized
that he seen me crying
"even without makeup,
without even trying.."
A week or so later
he called me late
I knew what was coming
then he asked me on a date
The date was so perfect,
with flowers and a movie
we cuddled on the couch
and he told me with glee
"I've been thinking of this
for quite awhile
just seeing you
makes me break into a smile,
Think about this,
don't rush to reply
but i was wondering
if you'd give us a try?"
Without even thinking
I hugged him so tight
he kissed my forehead
and sighed with delight
I looked up at him
and he didn't pull away
I just kept staring
not knowing what to say
he leaned forward
and kissed me so lightly
my stomach did flips
and I thought I could fly
as the weeks went by
our relationship grew
I was in love
and everyone knew
whenever they seen me
he'd be holding my hand
Or i'd sit quietly
listening to his band
Friends never stopped talking
about how perfect we were
"you'll be together forever!"
They sounded so sure.
At almost a month
with that sweetheart of mine
I trusted him dearly
until he crossed the line
He pulled down my pants
like he has before
but the actions he forced
left me so sore
He knew my boundaries
and he just wouldn't stop
My knees buckled beneath me
to the ground I dropped
I tried to crawl away
but he pulled me right back
As sobs pounded my throat
strength I began to lack
When he was done
he gathered me against him
"i'm sorry, baby. Please forgive me"
the chances were slim
Needless to say,
this was right before school
so I picked myself up;
such a worthless tool
friends asked what was wrong
I just shrugged and looked down
he had his arm around me
refusing to frown
in the bathrooms
I threw up my heart
I flushed it away
i had fallen apart
He was my life
i trusted him so much
a heart is just
so easy to crush
Life since that day
hasn't been all that bad
I have my happy thoughts
but most are just sad
I still see him daily
he's in my class
but, boy, you did it,
my world did crash.
It's all thanks to you
and getting carried away
my heart is still scarred
to this very day.
Dedicated to Cody Allen Palmer..
Started dating 9.23.08. raped on 10.22.08. officially broke up on 10.24.08.
It's almost been a year now, but i'm now coming out with the truth. I've been telling everyone that it was Attempted.. and for lieing I apologize.
I was hoping it would help me forget.. but it only built up the feeling of self worthlessness. SO.. now everyone knows.. except my parents and friends..
I can't tell them, they'd press charges and I don't want the whole story coming up again. There's no proof, no witnessess, no nothing. So.. it'd be pointless.
Anyways.. thank you so much for reading this. And if something like this ever happens to you.. TELL! DON'T make the same mistakes I did by keeping it to myself. PM me if you ever need to talk<3