Depression: A bit of sexual confusion...what to do??

[TheMetalFace]

I am 19 years old and for my ENTIRE life I have always been 100% straight. I have never even thought sexually or physically of ANY man up to this point...I have had moderate success with females also in my lifetime. But last Friday a thought hit me that I haven't been able to let go of up to this point. I had a small thought about what it would be like to be with a man sexually. I knew that it's unhealthy to suppress these things or to be in denial...so I decided to look at a :30 second video clip of gay porn...while watching I quickly became very disgusted and turned away from the video..and even regurgitated a little. As stated before I've never found any guys attractive ever in my life...nor have I ever gotten an erection from the thought of another man. I have basically come to the conclusion that I am a straight male because 1.) I think I would've known if I was into men before this point 2.) No male has given me any sexual pleasure. With this said the thought of a male giving me oral is lurking with me and I don't why I cannot shake it (though the thought doesn't give me an erection)...I am sure I am not bi-sexual because I physically could never have sex and/or be in a relationship with a man....so is it just hormones or what? and what can I do to shake these thought? could it also be some sort of mental disorder that is making keep thinking these thoughts?

[Triceratops]

:arrow: Moved to Teen Sexuality.

[Mzor203]

You're not gay, in short. You need to be both physically and sexually attracted to men to be gay. Which you aren't.

Chances are that you simply came across the thought, and it was not a pleasant one. Unpleasant thoughts tend to stick with us longer than more pleasant ones, so it's not any sort of disorder. Just give it time and eventually the thought will pass.

Hormones can play a large part in bringing up these thoughts, and you're only 19, meaning you still have a good deal of them being released. So that part could also be correct.

[TheMetalFace]

Also whenever I masturbate...and I become aroused by a woman...and I become 100% sure that I am not bi or gay...any gay thoughts make me more flaccid....but isn't it gay to even have the thought of a guy while masturbating?

[Mzor203]

No, it is not, especially during puberty. Weird thoughts will happen no matter what, and especially when you're sexually aroused.

It's nothing to worry about.

[TheMetalFace]

Okay...thank you sir...you've given me a bit more closure...but I must admit that I am afraid that the thought will last lol....but I am sure that it will fade away with time.

Anyone else have anything to add?

[Mzor203]

Just for future reference, please don't double post. If anyone has something to add, they will add it in time.

[Schon]

i have nothing to add, i believe Enbelism hit the nail on the head. you are not gay, you are not bisexual, its just puberty, your just a late bloomer :P

[thedudeman]

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[YourFriend]

Not gay.

[Moneyjr]

Just go bi.. you don't half to have sex with men all the time but lying to your self won't help.
everyone has sexual homo urges , its in the genes.. im not going to explain it.. too complicated.

something about father sexual gene KRH2p+XX.Y = mother sexual gene KrH2p+XY.X = Bi child

basically if you have sexual male encounters from child hood * showering naked with others after gym* .. your gayness is triggered and it seems like you've locked it away and now it wants out

but please don't lie to your self.. it what causes nger management or depression, or divorcing your wife.

[luvthissite]

dont sweat it dude, dont over analyze this. your body and mind will eventually get together and decide what you want, and whatever it ends up being, is cool, just relax if you can, it will all work out.