Do you ever wish things were different

[Harley Quinn]

I wish that never started self harm because all its done is lose me friends and i just wish things were different because when i self harm all i get is treated like crap as if im a nobody the worst thing is that the one i call friends are
The ones that treat me like shit on a daily basis.i wish i could stick for myself when this happens but my self worth/confidence holds me back and i hate it i hate me.argh.do you ever feel like this or is it just me

[Truth]

Do i wish i never self harmed? Nah, it's the only thing that's ever comforted me. My friends who hurt me, my friends who think they help just because i act fine, haven't ever made me as happy as pain.

Though, im sure alot of other people feel like you.

[Harley Quinn]

No i like everything that self harm helps me with its im sick of saying to people im fine even though im not well lets face it noone cares and it kills me every time i lose someone but i just cant stop.i broke my 3 day clean aswell

[Triceratops]

I always wish things were different, always. Even though sometimes it has it's pro's and con's.

Although if the self-harming, bulimia and OCD hadn't occured in my life, what would it be like? I often think to myself that it would be all too strange, as these disorders are a main part of me and if they were to vanish I wouldn't be myself anymore. As a matter of fact, I wouldn't of met the wonderful people that I've gotten to know this year, I wouldn't have the same interests, I wouldn't have anything to look back on and compare myself to how much stronger I am now to how I was in the past. Sure, I fucking hate a lot of me right now, but I just wouldn't be the same.

I used to be a huge emotional wreck, although I still somewhat am, just not as much. I grow a lot braver each day, even though I come crashing down again frequently I'll push myself to get back upon my feet eventually.

[dead]

Ya I do. I wish things were different I wish everyone would stop talking to me like i'm stupid just because I SH.

[Harley Quinn]

I feel the same as well because i wouldnt be who i am if i didnt self harm and everything but its sucks to be me and i hate it.i wish i wasnt born sometimes because i do is hurt thr ones that love me. Thanks for that story btw

[MadManWithaBox]

every day. i wish i didn't think i needed to slice my arms open to make myself happy, to make myself feel something. unfortunately, i can't change the past, so there's no point dwelling on it.

[Harley Quinn]

Thats the only that makes me feel worth anything and yeah you cant change but i wish there would be a time where the past meant nothing

[Rutherford The Brave]

I'm being truly honest, my life has been crap piled on crap. I've always wished things were different. I always wondered what life would be like if my mother never had died, or my father had never abused me, or I had never left for Mass, or if I never met Noor. I mean its hard enough as it is. For awhile now I've wished, cried and hoped that things would become different. Yet, I still am trudging through this life, and self harm just made me in much of a worse situation. I still cry about all the pain I put myself through, I wish all the time things were different for me, but I know this is my life now and there is no turning back.

[Harley Quinn]

If you wanna talk pm me.i do the exact same thing cry and continue to get worse and lose people

[MadManWithaBox]

the best thing you, and i, and anyone else can do, is try to move forward, and not to look back at the past. we can't change the past, but we can change the future. i got that advice off a very good friend and it has helped me in some very bad times. same as froglegs, pm me if you need to talk

[dstnyisurs]

I wish in a way that I had never started because it's honestly an addiction, but in a way I am thankful that I did begin to cut myself because if I didn't then I would've been even more insane. I would not have been able to express myself. I would have been more of a wreck then I am now. Cutting works, even though it is wrong and destructive and doesn't help.

[Project Delta]

Sure i wish i had never started self harm. But then again its good in a way that now i have a lot more friends (although they are just from the internet) But still now i'm also helping people and spreading awareness... so yeah its good and bad i guess... but i'm not totally sure if the good outweigh the bad

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

No. I can't say that I'm glad that I started, but I can't say that I wish I never had. Its made me stronger in ways, and its allowed me to understand my friends, and relate to them on levels I couldn't imagine. I've also made new friends because of it. So no. I don't wish I had never started, although it would be cool if I had never felt the need... But yeah... I feel that I can beat this so I don't feel bad about starting now.

[Atonement]

Though I wish I would have never started self harming, I am proud how far I've come and what kind of a person I've grown into.

[Viral Death]

All you have to do if change your life you need to make it happier and you need to quit self harming! You will get better friends!

[BuryYourFlame]

All you have to do if change your life you need to make it happier and you need to quit self harming! You will get better friends!

I found that a bit offensive, mainly because a lot the only friends that self-harmers have, are those that do it too, this leads me to believe that you are saying that people who do self-harm aren't as 'good'. Also, if their 'friends' do know about it, then that is a very good way to sift out the real friends who will love them regardless. This doesn't mean that we shouldn't try and stop, but doing it to "get 'better' friends" is not a reason. (Just a side note...it also isn't as simple as just 'quitting' self-harming, it is very addictive and never leaves even after the final cut, the thoughts and urges are still there.)

I feel the same as most people in here, of course, I wish my life was free of self-harm, but I dont know where I would be if i hadn't started.

[Project Delta]

I totally agree with Declan. There was a similar more threatening problem with Kale and he was similar except you have been through it. But you shouldnt be so blunt to be honest.

[Hyper]

I can reassure you everybody sometimes wishes things were different with themselves or other people, but thats completly normal wanting things to be different ( i.o better ) is still a good thing

[Spin]

Every. Day. Especially lately, I've really been in the gutter. I've been thinking about my life if I didn't start self-harming, didn't have OCD, didn't move. I think I would be so much more confident. Before I got like this I was a cool person to be around. Now I'm just distant, boring, quiet. I'm losing interest in everyone. I pretty much dislike all of my friends here. I've always been pretty shy but not like this. I'm just not like my real self at all, and I'm not sure if I ever will be. That honestly scares the shit out of me too. I pretty much regret my whole life after 7th grade. This whole transition to highschool really fucked me up also. I'm just trying to get through it now, and I can't wait until it's done. I just want to go to college and make everything better, start new and be happy.

[GreyxRainbow]

I sometimes wish I never started. But all this crap made me to the person I am now and I am a lot stronger because what I've gone trough than I was before I started self harm.
I have something to look back at, when I'm completely free. I will have something to look back at and I will know that I've been strong enough to get trough it, and whenever I'm feeling weak I will think of that.
I am in some ways a better person than I was. I honestly couldn't imagine my life without self harm. It's a part of my life I don't want to forget. Ever.

I also met a lot of wonderful people, I am happy I met them, and I wouldn't have met them without self harming.

So I sometimes want things to be different, but in general, no. I don't wish I never self harmed.

[aLeX..]

At least once every day, I think 'I wish things weren't as bad". But when I deeply think about things, I see that my life isn't as bad as I thought. Of course my life would be better if I never started self-harming or feeling suicidal. But the self-harming and feelings of being suicidal did lead me to attempt suicide on 5th May 2009, a day which I will probably have flashbacks of for the rest of my life. And then being taken to a Psychiatric Ward for Young People wasn't easy. Wasn't easy at all. It didn't help me, all it did was make me feel worse about myself. I had to show the doctorsa and psychologists that they weren't helping and that I was strong enough to do it. It took 8 weeks to show them, but I eventually did it, and I felt ready to face everything. Because of all that, I saw reality. Instead of my depression making me think "Everyone hates you, Alex.", "Go on do it, hurt yourself. No one cares"...I see that my friends, well not just my friends, my whole class, supports me, they all sent me letters when i was in hospital, and so did some of my teachers. So I now realise that I go to school with people who are willing to support me. I'm now getting ready for Year 10 in September and I'm hoping this next schoolyear will be a good one. I owe it to everyone, since they all say they believe in me. And I owe it to me. When I was going part-time from hospital to school for some weeks, I did take an overdose and I also did self-harm a few times. The school, and my friends, were really disappointed but they've given me more chances, which i feel really lucky about. I'm still trying really hard to stop my feelings. But I feel stronger. Even though sometimes I know I'll break. I think I would be a completley different person, if things were different. A part of me thinks this is all for the better, I believe everything happens for a reason. So I'm waiting to see what crazy reason this must be for...

[Harley Quinn]

If you need to talk pm me and i feel like that 24\7 and i hate it

[kt2369]

i wish i never did it also. all it does is give you scars that people see and then you have to explain....

i want to start over, new family and everything. i know i can do that because i have gone away that, that is an option for me. i just dont have the strength to do it

[VioletAngel]

I wish I'd never started. I feel like it's only fuelled my depression, and now I'm stuck with scars and shame even though I'm back in recovery.
But at the same time, I think the addicted part of me is glad that I started.
You're not alone
xxx