Sigh...

[2D]

I just relapsed after a good three weeks with no cuts.....I didn't even have and razors either...I grabbed a damn kitchen knife.....sigh...I was doing so well...then BAM!! Fail.....

[BuryYourFlame]

Mate...if you managed to get to three weeks without cutting, that is a great acheivement in itself, you should be proud of the fact that you got that far :)

PM me if you wanna talk. :)

[Corey G.]

Why do you cut yourself?

[Atonement]

Why do you cut yourself?

If that is a personal question to the original poster, okay, go for it, but if you are asking that in general, click this link for a page that I wrote about why people cut. (http://www.virtualteen.org/topics/teens/abuse/self-harm/)

[Project Delta]

Hey man i know that your feeling like you have failed but your only human! Your going to have some tough times and perhaps slip up like you did. I got to 25 days and cut last time. It's gonna happen so dont dwell TOO badly on it! Just get back up and think positively and keep going towards your goal of beating this bitch of an addiction :)

[megan101]

HUGS, dont worry, just keep trying hunny xx

[Triceratops]

:hug3:
On your road to recovery, you are going to slip up and make errors from time to time. That's just all part of the journey on your way to success.

Just try to remember this; if you can make it three weeks without self-injury you can go even longer if you really try. If you end up caving at some point you need to pick yourself up, refresh, and start again. Remember that tomorrow is a whole new day and a clean slate with new beginnings.

Best of wishes. <3

[Harley Quinn]

keep trying

Dont worry it happens now you just gotta try and pick yourself up and exceed the time without harming



Please do not double post. Thank you. ~Marshki Cyanide

[Corey G.]

Vindication that was personal question to the original poster.

[2D]

Why do you cut yourself?

Partly cuz I go through these little down times of depression. Cuz it's a addiction. The endorphans and all, it's like a release.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I know how hard it is to deal with the addiction. But 3 weeks is amazing and you should be so proud that you did it that long. Try to stay positive and also talk to people when you have any urges.

[Corey G.]

Partly cuz I go through these little down times of depression. Cuz it's a addiction. The endorphans and all, it's like a release.

I guess I should have worded my question abit differently, what causes this depression?

[2D]

I guess I should have worded my question abit differently, what causes this depression?

Silly little things I guess you could say. Just like getting put down a lot. And I always put a high standard for myself and if I can't reach my own expectations then how could I reach anyone elses? And also when I say silly little things I mean really dumb things. I hope I don't go too life story status here but basically I'm super feminine but not gay. And I always get called gay. I act like it, I like to wear clothes that I guess make me look gay. But the thing is I'm super self-conscious. So like sometimes I wanna buy this shirt or something and either its all rainbow like or it's a girls shirt. So I force myself not to buy it so I wont get picked on. And I hate that. And that gets me all depressed and whatnot. So yeah. Stuff like that. [And by the way I'm not against gay people, just not very secure in myself is all]

[Corey G.]

Silly little things I guess you could say. Just like getting put down a lot. And I always put a high standard for myself and if I can't reach my own expectations then how could I reach anyone elses? And also when I say silly little things I mean really dumb things. I hope I don't go too life story status here but basically I'm super feminine but not gay. And I always get called gay. I act like it, I like to wear clothes that I guess make me look gay. But the thing is I'm super self-conscious. So like sometimes I wanna buy this shirt or something and either its all rainbow like or it's a girls shirt. So I force myself not to buy it so I wont get picked on. And I hate that. And that gets me all depressed and whatnot. So yeah. Stuff like that. [And by the way I'm not against gay people, just not very secure in myself is all]

Other people can be harsh, but they don't know your heart, so they can't judge you by that. (Now they can judge something they see, say you actually doing something sexual with another guy, or you doing drugs, these things they can judge, because they give evidence.) But yeah, I get made fun of a lot, and a lot of people at my school thought I was gay XD, I'm not even Feminine! They say these things to try and bring you down so they can lift themselves up. A lot of times, you gotta think 'what are they going through?' Because most the time thoughs that are the meanest, are usually also thoughs who have had the roughest life. Say the rich preps for instance, most likely they never had the love from their parents that others have had, and this makes them jealous of others who they see are happy, so they have to take away your own happyness so they can feel somewhat good about themselves. Or they themselves could have been made fun of when they were younger, and this causes them to want to get revenge.

Its sad it really is, but you just have to remember a lot of times, they have it worse of then you, and to get them to stop rather than being mean back, be kind to them. Shower your enemies with kindness. Even if things don't seem to change, trust me, by being kind to them its like tossing burning coals on their heads.

(p.s. I'm not against people just actions. So I'm not against gay people, but I am against homosexuality, I just wish to save thoughs suffering from it. And I know from saying this I will be getting attacked, so if you wish to attack me for this statement please do it through PMs.)(Oh I would like to add the reason I said this is because alot of times changing Images of others, can change how you see yourself, or the things that bring you down)

[dstnyisurs]

Everyone relapses, love. It's okay. Tommorrow is a new day and you can do it. I know you can. Stopping is possible. I'm here if you need anything.

[2D]

Well I've almost gone 3 more days now. Thanks for the encouragement everyone. It helped.

[kt2369]

at least you went that long i normally try to go longer and longer each time. right now im at 25 days

[2D]

Congrats! I hope I can make it that long this time. :)