uh a confession I guess

[YesterdaysNews]

hey I just reallly need to tell someone about this and well yeah...

lastnight I cut ALOT, I had never bled so much and it scared me but it felt right so I just kept adding more and more cuts. I was arguing with my "friend" and thats what triggered it. he is clinically depressed but he doesnt take his meds so he cuts and I try to stop him from cutting by telling him that I was cutting. usually he stops right away but this time he hesitstated. I thought that he was going to go too far, so I kept cutting. I told him how much I was cutting and he finally stopped. but even after he did, I didnt. i kept wanting to feel more pain and watching the blood. I was so angry with him that I wanted everything to fade. but I stopped before it got to that... I feel so weak.

[Harley Quinn]

If you need to talk you can pm anytime. Are they deep? If they are you need to look after them. Its not your fault it was a barrier in the way and now you have to break it down and be strong enough to get through rid of whatever you used. Take it one step at a time x

[Truth]

Cutting yourself to get some one else to tell you he won't cut for a day isn't the help they need! Cutting yourself to make some one do something? No! You have to give them hope, not guilt! =( Don't cut yourself, find something else to make your friend stop, and ask your friend for help next time you want to cut.

[YesterdaysNews]

If you need to talk you can pm anytime. Are they deep? If they are you need to look after them. Its not your fault it was a barrier in the way and now you have to break it down and be strong enough to get through rid of whatever you used. Take it one step at a time x

ive cleaned them & I put some gauze on them for the night, when I took it off this morning they looked alright.

I tell my friend that it hurts me more than it hurts him but he doesnt listen. he thinks hes worthless and deserves to die and I try to convince him that hes wrong but cutting is the only way to get through to him

[Harley Quinn]

Have you tried to talk to him when he doesnt feel bad about himself. Have you tried to reason with him in a way that dont cause him or you harm. Has he completely stop taking his meds

[YesterdaysNews]

I dont think he ever took his meds, or if he did for a very short time. it seems like hes always in a bad mood, he locks himself in his room for hours. sometimes he'll just ignore me completely

[Harley Quinn]

Has he ever been to see a counciler or whatever because i think he might need help. If you dont mind me asking what made him so bad

[YesterdaysNews]

I think he went to see a therapist a week or so ago. when I said friend, it was kind of an understatement, we're more than friends but things have gotten bad between us..

[Harley Quinn]

Ohh i just hope that they will help him for your sakes and his. Im sorry things got bad between you was it complicated

[YesterdaysNews]

very complicated, I posted a couple videos on youtube and he took them the wrong way...

[Harley Quinn]

Im guessing he got mad and took it out on the both of you. Does he realise what he is doing is upsetting up

[YesterdaysNews]

I told him and he started saying things that werent true and he wont let me explain properly. the worst thing is that he wont even watch the videos, he says he doesnt want to. its just the titles and descriptions he goes by and those are totally misleading

[Harley Quinn]

I would like force him to watch them so he can see for himself that what the title and desciption is nothing.i think that he is trying to make you feel bad by saying those things

[YesterdaysNews]

I'll try, thanks alot, for every thing :]

[Harley Quinn]

anytime im her to talk if you need to. :)

[BuryYourFlame]

Hey Amanda, I think you need to talk to him in a calm, and not attacking manner (not saying you have been, just a reminder), and carefully explain the situation. If he doesn't listen to that then there isn't much else you can do except give him time to come to his senses.

Please stop the cutting :( it doesn't solve/help anything...it just makes everyone feel a lot worse...

PM me if you want to talk.