Stories

[dizzydinosaur]

I need your stories
- Self harm
- Eating disorders
- Depression
- Suicide

Why? How? When? Stopped? How? And anything else that could be helpful, or you just want to add...

I need them for school as I'm trying to educate young people on all these things, and stories really help (: x

[Harley Quinn]

I have been self harming in different ways for 2 years now and it all started when i was in the in shower and i cut myself shaving by accident and the feeling it brought was like all my troubles were going away.it wasnt until my best friend found out that i realised i was bad. Im trying to stop but its only been two days

[Project Delta]

Basically i started coz of bullying in my school, came home drew a bath and then sat there and took the razor and cut the back of my hand. Quite a lot too and then i kinda got addicted a bit. I've attempted suicide by overdose and one i dont remember before and as to reply to the "How" part, we are not allowed to inform you on ways to cut

[dizzydinosaur]

I didn't mean how you do it, I mean how you started to do it... that probably made more sense in my head :p and I probably know and have tried every single way anyways...

[Project Delta]

Doubtful to be honest but nyeh! :P

Hopefully i'm over it now so yeah :)

[OnlyByTheNight.]

It all started roughly a year ago for me.... I was feeling very low and I just used to write stupid messages to myself on my arm using a compass but I never actually cut. Then I kinda stopped until about 5 months ago when I actually did start cutting and my sh has gradually been worsening since then.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I can't remember why I started. I guess because I had a few friends that did and I was curious as to if it worked. I was harming since about 12, and I was just feeling really really down. I was feeling so low because my dad left us when I was ten, then I had a few pets that died (My pets mean a lot to me), my closest cousins moved to America and my grandad died of a herion overdose. And this all happened in a short time, about 6 months or something. I bottled it all up which didn't help. I first harmed in my maths classroom. Nobody noticed. My cutting got a lot worse since then and I'm addicted to it the now. I've tried to kill myself about 7 times, in a few different ways. I love almost everything about my harming and I guess the fact I enjoy it so much is scaring me a bit. I'm trying to stop, because a good friend of mine asked me to, followed by a few others, but I'm struggling with it. However I will be doing everything I can to stop.

[2D]

Started cuz I was feeling down and wondered if it helped. Sure did. I was positively addicted. A few friends found out about 2 months after I started. And they asked me to stop and helped me abunch and so far it's been about 3 weeks with no self harm. I think partially I have a box full of stuff to help me not cut and my friends came in my room and stole all my blades. It helped me anyway. As to why I cut I think it's cuz I just act on my impulses and like rushes. If you wanna know a bit more about me then read my thread titled "I think this is where this Q goes". I had an eating disorder about a year ago. I was bulimic. I eventually got over it with help from some friends. Now I just exercise regularly and eat less. The funny thing is that I never really thought I had a disorder. I guess I'm weird like that. I guess I do go through little periods of mild depression for no apparant reason but It's not too bad. That's it for me.

[Flutterfly]

Before I started I had the idea for a few months...
I was at a youth conference at my church (I know, sad) and found a staple... but my friend noticed I was crying before I actually cut.
Then when I started going to public school for the first time ever, two years ago, I was bored in my class and upset.
I had a mechanical pencil, so it wasn't deep.
I was upset at things that happened at school, I was way sheltered and got teased for it.
My grandpa had died a few years ago and my family was gradually falling apart. Holidays sucked.
I learnt that my dad did drugs...
No one believed I would cut, so I got away with it.
I always hated pain, my mum didn't even believe the school when they called to tell her the day my friend told the teacher. She thought they had the wrong kid.
I stopped for 7 months after that. Then my dad went to rehab, so he wasn't living with us, and I started again. I stopped for 5 and a half months until the holidays when life sucked yet again. I stopped when I got in some trouble and lost all my close friends. Then I started again in May of this year, and as of today it has been 26 days.
I cut because of being upset about my grandpas death, family started hating eachother, holidays got ruined, I started school and no one liked me, started losing all my friends, found out my dad did drugs, didn't get along with my mum... too much too fast.
But I might be done... unless this is another month thing >.<
Friends are the best way to stop, whether online or IRL.

[dstnyisurs]

I was a child with access to the internet. I found out about cutting. I needed a way to cope, and tried that after much stalling. It worked. It was pitiful, so I cut deeper and deeper. I was doing that for nearly a year and odd months. Then I stopped for almost eleven months. Then I started again. Me and a friend on here have a pact to stop. I'm going to try to. I'm always going to be a cutter because I'll always want to cut. But I know I need to stop.
Now I use cutting as relief. It's feels so good, I want to do it more and more to see how high I can get, how long I can fend off the demons. I want to sit there and wallow in my pain because it's easier then being angry and freaking out. That's when I can't control myself. I don't know why I was so sad that I started, but I think it's because I have to urge, the need, to control my emotions to the point where I suppress what I feel and who I am. It's painful but I can't stop. I don't say what I really think, I don't think what I want to think, I don't act how I want to act, and I feel so stupid for it but I have to do it.
-sigh- Sorry, that was a load. But it's the story.

[Bougainvillea]

I had a binge disorder. It started a little while after my dad died.
Binge eating disorder is a newly recognized condition that probably affects millions of Americans. People with binge eating disorder frequently eat large amounts of food while feeling a loss of control over their eating. This disorder is different from binge-purge syndrome (bulimia nervosa) because people with binge eating disorder usually do not purge afterward by vomiting or using laxatives. I had it for about a year. My mom took me to a counsellor and she helped. :)

[Rogue27]

Well I fell into a mild depression. It started when my parents got divorced when I was 6. Then my grandmother my best friend died. My friends decided that it would be a good idea to leave me, and my sister trated me like crap. But I went to counseling after I felt suicidal and I learned how to work out my problems. i made new friends and I am still dealing with my sister. Things always look up if you wait to let them, it might not take 1 day or 2 months, it may take years, but they always do. This is coming from me who waited years for things to look up. Just wait, fate has a way of playing out!

[Sapphire]

Do you want short explanations or more detailed explanations?

[BlackenedSilver]

Well I started cutting last year in June. Everything just got too much I had alot of pressure from my family to do well in exams though most teachers had written me off as either a fail or average. I was bullied alot over the years and this caused me to develop a hatred towards myself. I blame myself for every little bad thing that happens and think I need to be punished. So it was a mix of all that and being crushed by a guy that caused me to first start. I have tried to commit suicide twice since then.
I have had a binge eating disorder my whole life, but I never saw it as that before I just thought I had a huge appetite. Last year I started to try to make myself purge or I would binge then not eat for a few days, But I learnt how to successfully purge late last year.