naruus
July 17th, 2009, 07:30 PM
Hello, Im 16 and I am currently in a state on which I need peoples help..
About two years ago, me and two other MALE friends experimented at a sleepover J/Off in each others bedrooms and stuff, nothing too bad, I would not get aroused by them or anything along those lines.. Then one day, one of my friends tried sucking me off, I didn't move or anything but I wasn't telling him to stop, it felt very good to say the least, and he tried to sneak a finger into an unwanted territory (yeah... There) I quickly said stop and said 'No, that'd be a bit gay.' He agreed and stopped touching me instantly. From that day on I've always been bi-curious e.t.c and wondered what itd be like to have gone that bit further with this guy..
However, in high school I met this girl, April, after a while I felt love, I loved her so much and to this day still do, I get butterflies whenever I see her and I get the urge to protect her, I have wanted to have sex with her and Im pretty sure that if I asked her, she would go out with me and have sex with me..
I am telling you this mainly for self relief, to get it off my chest, however, there will always be this bit of 'Corruption' inside my mind, I want to know what it would be like to do things to a guy, this is why Im not sure whether Im gay or not, or even bisexual, If ever I think a guy is slightly 'hot' he will always have a womenly figure, however, April is always gonna be my love, I will always want to try things, I am wondering, because I dont know what its like to have a girl do anything with me, however I know what its like to have a guy do something..
Please help
About two years ago, me and two other MALE friends experimented at a sleepover J/Off in each others bedrooms and stuff, nothing too bad, I would not get aroused by them or anything along those lines.. Then one day, one of my friends tried sucking me off, I didn't move or anything but I wasn't telling him to stop, it felt very good to say the least, and he tried to sneak a finger into an unwanted territory (yeah... There) I quickly said stop and said 'No, that'd be a bit gay.' He agreed and stopped touching me instantly. From that day on I've always been bi-curious e.t.c and wondered what itd be like to have gone that bit further with this guy..
However, in high school I met this girl, April, after a while I felt love, I loved her so much and to this day still do, I get butterflies whenever I see her and I get the urge to protect her, I have wanted to have sex with her and Im pretty sure that if I asked her, she would go out with me and have sex with me..
I am telling you this mainly for self relief, to get it off my chest, however, there will always be this bit of 'Corruption' inside my mind, I want to know what it would be like to do things to a guy, this is why Im not sure whether Im gay or not, or even bisexual, If ever I think a guy is slightly 'hot' he will always have a womenly figure, however, April is always gonna be my love, I will always want to try things, I am wondering, because I dont know what its like to have a girl do anything with me, however I know what its like to have a guy do something..
Please help