Silent.

[nachtspiegel]

I wish that I could take back the things that I've told anyone.
I hate when people know things about my past.
Especially the more "deep" things.
Right now, coming to terms with my past isn't the problems.
It's knowing that everyone else knows.

I didn't go to therapy because I wanted to shut everything out.
It isn't working because, of course, I can't do that.
I hate making promises because I cannot keep them.
I hate expectations because I cannot live up to them.
My mind is sick and I just want to stop.

(If no one else knew, I could go back to my world of make believe.)
(I could go back to believing in everything and knowing nothing.)

[Silent]

Hey man if you ever want feel free to pm me. Im sorry you having to feel this way.

[Atonement]

-edited out-

[nachtspiegel]

You're right.
That's why I don't fully regret everything.

I just wish the past never happened.
I'm tired of waking up every day hoping to die.

[Triceratops]

I'm sorry if I'm not much help here.
I'm not really sure what to say, and although saying nothing sometimes is the best thing to do.

I just want to say that I hope you're okay, and that everyone is here for you no matter what.
Best of luck and wishes. :hug:

[Techno Monster]

David we all love you, just in case you needed a reminder.
:heart: If you ever need to talk I'm here.

[nick]

I just want to say that I hope you're okay, and that everyone is here for you no matter what.
Best of luck and wishes. :hug:
Same David.

Hang in there and remember there are so many people here who care about you and wish you all the best.

[nachtspiegel]

Addi - :hug:
Marcie - :hug: I read a lot of your posts and I find a lot of wisdom in the things that you say. All of your posts, directed at me or not, are helpful. Thanks. :)
Caitlin - I know. I love this place. I hate making "gloom and doom" posts but VT is about the only place that I can let it all loose. I can't trust anybody elsewhere anymore.
Nick - I do my best to remember that, and I'm so lucky to have people that care. :)

What led to this post is the thought that I was building myself back up. Something happened the other day, and even though the event in itself was minor, what it brought up in my head is making me feel like every step forward I take is destined to be followed by two backward steps.

[BuryYourFlame]

There are only a few things that I am truly sure of, and one of those is that we cannot change what happened in the past, but what I also know is that we can use our past, and mold it to help our future and make us stronger and wiser. I truly hope you can achieve this.

Shoot me a PM if you wanna talk :)