rock bottom

[MadManWithaBox]

ive finally hit rock bottom. my only friend in the world has told me to piss off, and he told me to slash my wrists and die. i did this last night. i decided to go and see him in manchester to prove to him id done so he'd forgive me. as it was 2am last night, no buses were running so i walked. the bleeding hadn't stopped. eventually, about half an hour of walking from my house, the pain became too much, and i sat down ina ditch on the side of the road. that was about 3am. i stayed there till 9am this morning, the bleeding didn't stop till about 5am, and was stopping and starting all day. and i eventually got on a bus, with people staring cos i was covered in blood, and quite dirty, and got to the train station, bought a ticket to manchester, got on, and got thrown off the train at the second stop. because i was dirty and covered in blood, not sure if they were legally allowed to do that. now, i think ive officialy hit rock botto. still, can't go any lower i suppose. just needed to tell someone. thanks

[DecemberRain]

I'm so sorry to hear that. I hate it when I hear how rude and inconsiderate people can be. Do people not think about other peoples fealings?? Are you okay? I hope that the person that said that to you realizes how horrible it was to say that to you. I'm here if you want or need to talk. Pm me anytime. I am recently trying to stop cutting(again). I hope you get better.

[peaceloverugby]

That's horrible. I don't think a real friend would say something like that

[Bougainvillea]

I'm so sorry. It's terrible how a persons words can be so hurtful. He was dumb and inconsiderate. It's good that he's no longer your friend. You need someone better than that. I hope you're okay. And I hope you get better.

[MadManWithaBox]

thank you, i do appreciate the support, but, eveythings changed now. he was the only reason why i bothered getting up in the morning. even at the time when he said that, we were at a brief period of non communication, but i thought hey thats not his fault his parents fault he still cares, then this, the last person hates me. im a bit confused now

[Bougainvillea]

That sucks...

[MadManWithaBox]

i have now recieved two texts off him telling me the same thing he's already said. doesn't hurt as much as it did when i first saw it but still. if he'd chosen a different time to do it, i might have been able to get over it, but bad time

[dstnyisurs]

He's not worth you're pain, love. That was an inconsiderate and terrible thing for him to say. It's so sad how people can be so hurtful.

[MadManWithaBox]

i went up to manchester to see him today. he spat in my face then slammed the door. i need him, i can't live without him. but he doesn't want me, thats obvious. what to do

[DinoRAWR]

That is really not cool. I know it's hard but he really isn't a good friend. Is this all out of the blue or did you guys have a fight? Either way, it's probably best you don't try to contact him, he's obviously causing you a lot of hurt which you clearly dont deserve. He sounds like a right creep in my opinion, no real friend would do that.

[Triceratops]

:hug3:
I'm so sorry to hear this. This friend has just proved himself to be a complete asshole and he doesn't deserve one little bit of your affection or care in the slightest. People like that make me sick.

Please remember that none of this is your fault and you most certainly didn't deserve any of that shit. If you need any comfort, help, support or advice please do not hesitate to PM me whenever you want. <3

[MadManWithaBox]

thank you all very much. i went a little crazy last night, smashed somethings, cried, but it cleared my head. he wasn't good for me, but despite all this, i still care for him. which isn't good. so i know what i need to do. im going to go do it now. thank you all so much, very much appreciated. i just need to get away from it all, from him.

[Project Delta]

Good to hear you cleared your mind dude! :)

[MadManWithaBox]

i have taken some action. i went down to my local army, cos i signed up for the army a few months, and i was due to start training end of 2010/2011, but i went to guy in charge, and asked if i could get my training moved up to, and could i leave ASAP. he said i could if i could parental, if i did, then i could be gone by the middle of august. which is good. however my mum is not ever going to sign it as she's incredibly against my military career away(it took me like two years to persaude to let me join the army), and it doesn't help me now, cos im still thinking alot of different things. oh dear. very bad week

[dstnyisurs]

Love, you're strong. You can stop. Just try to get a square meal and some sleep, and tommorrow will be another day, and next week will be completely different if you let it. (: