I don't want to get hurt again...

[chelsay13]

Okay, so when school started I had this thing with a guy. In october he hurt me. Not physically, emotionally. And I started cutting myself. Then a few monthes later i had it all under control. He asked me out and I said "sure". So we dated. I told him a lot, he told me a lot. Then I told him something no one else should have known. He then spread a rumor that I am Bi. It was horrible [not that I have ANYTHING against anyone who is bi at all]. I got mad and then he apologized and I fell for it. Then I started cutting again. He got to be a jerk and then one night he just said "go cut yourself and die a slow painful death". He hurt me. He is the reason My life has been screwed up. The reason I runined my life with cutting and got in a lot of trouble. and Now, I'm afraid of liking someone again. I'm too afraid what happened could happen again. I like a few people and they like me too. I need someone to love me other than my family and best friends. But I don't know...what am I supposed to do? I've finally got y cutting back under control...so I'm scared. I've tried not liking anyone and stuff, didn't work. So what now?

[Sapphire]

I'm sorry that you have been hurt and betrayed like that.
Not everyone will be the same as him. However there are no guarantees that everyone will be different.
Life is a gamble - you never know what will happen from one moment to the next. If we allow fear to take a hold then we will never do anything.

So, don't hold yourself back. Instead be a bit cautious - by getting to know whoever you are interested in before you start dating you can save yourself some heartache.

It is very good that your self harm is under control again.
You have to recognise something concerning self harm though. It may sound harsh but it is the truth.

You are the one that chooses does it. Your reasons are your own and I respect that. But do not carry on thinking that person X or person Y made you do it. They can make you feel a certain way but ultimately you are the one in control of how you react to that emotion.

[chelsay13]

When i said "he made me do it" I meant like he is the one who caused me to start.

[Sapphire]

I'm sorry but unless he physically made you do it then that's incorrect.

[Aves]

I think you just had a bad experience, with a dick of a guy. My advice is stay in the game, and don't cut yourself if you get hurt like this. If you do get hurt like this again just move on, it's the best you can do.

That's all I got.

[kyle95]

chelsea, u didn't do anything wrong. that guy is a jerk. u seem to have confidence issues. get those under control b4 jumping into another relationship. we all like 2 b loved. but it's a minefield, tread carefully so u never have 2 turn in on urself and do destructive things. show that idiot ur stronger than that and that no1 has a hold over u. be strong and above all, love urself. everything else will follow, including relationships and love :)

[chelsay13]

Thanks kyle95 :)
and Sapphire, I'm sorry, I don't think you understand what I mean, maybe I'm just not clear. I'm not sure how to explain what i said any further. Like, he's the one who pushed me into it, not literally.

[kyle95]

ur welcome chelsea. b good 2 urself :)