Fiending_the_freedom
July 11th, 2009, 01:52 AM
I don't know what to do.
I love Owen,
so much,
and yea maybe my previous relationship made me need more care.
maybe i have just admitted that to myself tonight, yea i know i wasn't the clingy kind, and I'm not, but i have to admit to myself that because of the rape, i need lots or care.
I just... I haven't told Owen about it,
and i haven't told him any of the times i got so pissed off at him for ditching plans or such, so i feel bad because we promised we wouldn't hold back because then we would resent each other,
but i when I'm mad, its always because he ditches me through texts, and then i say "well if I'm really mad i will talk to him in person" but then i don't see him for days and i figure if I'm over it no need to mention it. now I'm at a point where i getting upset, crying, but i still cant confront him.
i love him, we haven't had a fight yet, i don't want to start that.
he had this girlfriend for three years that was a controlling bitch, cheater and just horrible person, and, hes oblivious just like most guys (no offense) but i feel like even if i did tell him whatever i have no words to use to tell him how i feel, he wouldn't necessarily "care", i feel like he will always be a "I'll do what i want when i want" guy because of this,
dont take me wrong he's a great guy i know he loves me completely.
I love Owen,
so much,
and yea maybe my previous relationship made me need more care.
maybe i have just admitted that to myself tonight, yea i know i wasn't the clingy kind, and I'm not, but i have to admit to myself that because of the rape, i need lots or care.
I just... I haven't told Owen about it,
and i haven't told him any of the times i got so pissed off at him for ditching plans or such, so i feel bad because we promised we wouldn't hold back because then we would resent each other,
but i when I'm mad, its always because he ditches me through texts, and then i say "well if I'm really mad i will talk to him in person" but then i don't see him for days and i figure if I'm over it no need to mention it. now I'm at a point where i getting upset, crying, but i still cant confront him.
i love him, we haven't had a fight yet, i don't want to start that.
he had this girlfriend for three years that was a controlling bitch, cheater and just horrible person, and, hes oblivious just like most guys (no offense) but i feel like even if i did tell him whatever i have no words to use to tell him how i feel, he wouldn't necessarily "care", i feel like he will always be a "I'll do what i want when i want" guy because of this,
dont take me wrong he's a great guy i know he loves me completely.