Last night - may trigger.

[nachtspiegel]

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[Antares]

Aww. Dude, I am always here if you need to talk. Seriously, I am on until like 5am :P

But I really hope things get better. Life is shitty sometimes but it always seems to get better. You just have to believe and try to do everything that you can to make it that way. Granted, some things are out of your hands, but try to do everything to make your day the best for you. Not for anyone else, but for you. You are your first priority.

Good luck :D

[Corey G.]

What got me the most of your story is 'you don't know who will find you.' It made me want to tear up(I would have if it wasn't for the thought of blood making me want to throw upxP) Listen YOUR LIFE ISN'T POINTLESS! Trust me on that, and I believe it was the grace of God that saved you there I do. Just read your story and tell me there is no sign of someone intervening. Someone who loves you more than you could possibly imagine, even if at times it seems he doesn't at all. I know this is probably going to get tossed out but I don't care, i want to help you, and this is the only way I think of. Listen to me please, and understand. He loves you, and hes trying his hardest to reach out too you, so hard sometimes he lets certain things reach you...just so you can be healed one day of all of this. Listen please, 'you don't know who will find you.' And here I am telling you who is searching for you. Listen please, you said it yourself 'you dont want to make a mess when they drag you out of here' don't worry about that it doesnt matter how messy, he will pick you up, and clean it away. Please listen, he died so you may live, and Hes trying to reach you, you just have to let him, Hes knocking, will you answer the door?

[Atonement]

I cried. So much when I read this. You know how much you mean to me. Me. I don't give a fuck about anyone else right now even though I know its true for many people. You mean everything to me. Its selfish. If you go, who will be left? If you go, who will call me dumb when i want to slit my wrists? Who will want to give me a hug though they can't? You mean too much to risk throwing it away.

[nachtspiegel]

I cried. So much when I read this. You know how much you mean to me. Me. I don't give a fuck about anyone else right now even though I know its true for many people. You mean everything to me. Its selfish. If you go, who will be left? If you go, who will call me dumb when i want to slit my wrists? Who will want to give me a hug though they can't? You mean too much to risk throwing it away.

<3

If you ever need me, I'm always here...
Always.

[BuryYourFlame]

good to hear you will be sticking around David :)

[Atonement]

As this is edited out of the OP, I am locking.